A Traumatic Experience That Left an Impression
This happened when I was 24, and I'm 31 now. I was in a serious relationship, and was likely going to get married to this Indian girl (I'm also Indian). We were dating for about a year, and we started fighting a lot, and eventually broke up. She said a lot of things upto the point when we broke up, but one thing she repeated a lot many times was that she wanted somebody white. At the time, it just felt like she's so stupid, and I couldn't believe the non-sense.
But fast forward 7 years, and I see it everywhere. You see Asian women wanting white guys all the time. You start a porn website, and you see white guys doing the nastiest things to non-white women (websites like LatinaAbuse). Okcupud or Tinder dating statistics also show that most women in the US want a white guy, and only the leftovers want non-white guys. Ever since all of this happened, I have been completely unable to maintain a romantic bond with a woman, no matter what ethnicity. I just prefer to be by myself. I used to be very confident back in India, where we all used to watch Indian movies with Indian actors, and had pride in who we were.
Should I leave the US?