Holidays and the perks it comes with

Now that the holidays are around the corner, Thanksgiving and bhaam it's Christmas. Even Netflix pops up recommendations like "The Holiday Engagement" phew I even watched the movie and told myself - even for a "it only happens in the movies" standard the story was ridiculous. I am extremely grateful for all the good people, literally all the random good people who have helped me, work, boss, friends and family. Yet, the pressure surrounding being "Single" is so horrible; I am not talking about facing people, it's about facing my ownself. I am happy, workout, done decent for myself and yet why does being by myself not complete my personal/societal resume? I almost feel like this happens in Spurs and goes away -I feel this way, feel like crap, sleep, wake up, go on with life, a few months pass by and then it hits again, feels worse during the holidays. Is life truly not in your control?