You have a lot of good points but the weight of that knowledge is poisoning you and some therapy may help to detox.
I know there's a lot of stigma about seeing a therapist but they're honestly there to try to help people out.
Born and raised east coast usa. I'm relatively charming and able to hold conversations, but overall people kinda just piss me off.
They make up rumors, miscommunicate, talk behind your back, etc. or maybe they're just completely stupid. everyone puts up a front to be socially accepted. it's pointless.
I generally believe that most people's misery in the first world is just worthless bullsh*t people make up in their own heads because drama > the null void of an existence that doesn't require survival. You have no real purpose at that point. you can either go into public service, build something, or live to serve your own desires and ego. Most go with option 3.
It all seems 99% negative. Humans are generally toxic in my experience. Family, friendships, relationships; all shit. No one respects me no matter how well I carry myself or how often I stand my ground. I don't trust anyone.
I navigate it very well but honestly I hate most people. I don't really want to speak up about it. no point in wasting my time and energy because everyone just wants to be right even when they're in the wrong. There is no winning unless you've already done something in life. all they'll see is some 'loser' who isn't a sh*thead like them. honestly even being a celebrity or politician won't help you spread positivity. Nothing impresses anyone because they're all so self absorbed they'd only care if it was their own accomplishment
Deep down I care for my brothers and sisters in war torn, hostile, occupied, impoverished, and famine strucken areas, but most everyone else is just a bunch of useless brats imo. This country is so divided that the toxicity has seeped into every pore of the social fabric here. it's getting worse
idk how y'all deal with it. being bitter or reclusive is bad too because you would just become more of an outcast which will lead to additional toxic vibes directed at you and you'd become even more miserable.
I literally want to floor it and drive off a bridge most days. My only solution is just be a winner and live for some meaningful purpose you actually care about.