I am 32 , earn well and have a life that most people would envy . But i am not happy. I like my job but somehow not satisfied. For the first time in my life I have stopped caring about what my friends do or achieve as I am genuinely happy for them . I have stopped caring about expectations from parents ( like most Indians ) and even they have stopped bothering me . I am living a life most people from my country would envy . But something is not adding up . I can’t sleep well . I am just existing and not living . I love my wife but I’m sure she will start hating the person I am becoming very soon . I will not kill my self because that’s dumb. But I have no idea what makes me happy anymore . I tried a whole bunch of activities but nothing seems to be working . I just wanted to rant because I can . P.S: I don’t think this has anything to do with Amazon. I really like my work and am genuinely working on interesting stuff with a good team.
I feel the same. 26 single everything else the same.
Do you have kids?
Kids wont solve it either. If you aren't happy, you take yourself wherever you go.
Your problem is that you have everything, so you don’t have a problem to solve. Try traveling to off beat places
One thing you should absolutely do is talk to a professional. You don’t even have to tell anyone you’re doing it and just rant to them. Then you should also take some time to get away, go on a road trip for two weeks or even pit of the country backpacking. Bring a journal or some books about things or people you admire. Start writing! Just randomly about your thoughts, not concrete lists about things you want to change in your life or any of those things people suggest to help you figure shit out but just write! I bet there you will learn something about yourself. Most of all remember that it’s up to you man, the world does not care, you gotta make things happen and you can do it by not being afraid to just change everything. You have to be comfortable with the reality that the future might be a little more difficult to navigate than it is now from your comfortable place but that’s okay, because if you find happiness, you will have no problem working hard and making due! You can do it!!!! Just don’t waste time complaining and doing nothing, it’s not helping you and it’s annoying to everyone else. Cheers!
Hookers + blow
And blackjack
As the saying goes, "Get busy livin', or get busy dyin'".
Mid life crisis is hitting early :)
In all seriousness, this hits me too recently. Step back and find something you enjoy whether it is in or outside of work...dive in fully. Sports, learning a new language, technology, anything. Easier said than done.
This is not a joke, but maybe you can try going to non denominational Christian Church and talk to a pastor. For me this was much more helpful than even seeing a professional.
You have too good life. People need problems to be happy, they need goals and work their ass off to achieve those. If you are successful at work, maybe start doing something else that can be your goal? Sports are pretty good. If you don't have problems with joints weightlifting can give you great feeling of accomplishment when you beat your records. Just find a purpose. I come from a poor family and poor country. I grew up with pretty rough conditions and I remember that my family back then could appreciate smallest things and even though their life was not good by any means they were really happy. You seem to be at the place in your life when you need to pick another difficult goal for yourself and dedicate yourself to it. Also, like someone mentioned, get real help. Depression is not trivial. It can destroy your life, family and everything around you. My wife had a depression after delivering our son and it was very difficult. See a doctor, consider someeds, for now to get some motivation and change something about your life.
This. OP may have depression or other mental illness. Take advantage of your tech benefits and seek mental health assessment. Some types of mental issues affect us at different points in our lives. Some start randomly and last the rest of our lives.
This rings true on so many levels with me. I had a similar issue at 32. My approach was to radically alter my life. Founded a few startups that went nowhere. Now part of a few successful startups. I have a lot more wisdom that most people I meet (not trying to humblebrag). I can explain why certain social or personal things are the way they are. Now, when I make decisions they are mostly rewarding and not depressing because I've really discovered myself. But I would not recommend this for the faint hearted because there will be times when you will discover new lows of your life. Therapy, meditation and patience are much easier ways to do this -- perhaps with the same effectiveness.
And then people tell they don't cry at their desks. Aha, sure. Try joining a good company and work on something meaningful.
I don’t think this has anything to do with Amazon. I really like my work and am genuinely working on interesting stuff with a good team.