Love the work, manager hates me, feel very stressed
Manager does not value my work.
He is only focusing on any negative things, does not recognize achievements, and requests useless tasks.
He clearly does not like me.
I feel very stressed, have problems sleeping and this is the first thing I think about when waking up.
I love the job, I have been working a lot this year, crazy results,..
But the so called perf reviews should actually favorite puppet review.
This broke me, as I gave so much last year, and various statements in the review are mere lies.
I have been feeling so stressed that Sometimes I can’t prevent from crying, feel chest pains, don t want to have sex,...
The fact that he keeps focusing on any negative thing impacts my well being, and I believe it will impact my career long run and am scared that he will badmouth me so that any new employee will actually hate me too.
I have nothing lined up yet, but I can’t stop fantasizing about quitting.
Everytime I see him now I feel even more stressed but am keeping my shit together.
I am trying to tamper with thinking that there way less paid ppl than us ( Bay area) who work in very hard condition.
I sacrified what I consider a lot for being here (far from parents, friends, was alone before my wife joined me, like most ppl there are blackout travel periods due to visa and gc process).