Really sad: had G offer years ago, nothing now :(
I made a huge mistake. 5 years ago I had an offer from G (without ANY preparation), but I went with Amazon. I was new grad and stupid. I was in a great team at Amazon, great pay (high performer, so got really good bonuses every year), great teammates and manager, great WLB, great learning, etc. Then I decided to move to a different team, just because I wanted to try something new. The manager himself came to me and asked me to join his team. I did, and that was my second mistake. After a few months I realized how terrible the management, the product and the team atmosphere was. I thought I could work it out, and stayed another month, and then they put me on dev plan. They kept the plan open-ended, no matter how much I delivered they kept adding to the plan. I started looking external and I couldn't pass G/U. I did get offers from some other companies, but honestly I didn't want to work with them the moment I met the interviewers. They were way below my average expectations.
I don't know what to do. Not allowed to switch teams while being on dev plan. Feel very sad that I had an offer from G years ago and now I failed their interview. The recruiter said the feedback was that I was extremely close to make it, because the solutions were correct and optimal but the consistent feedback from different rounds was that I was a bit slow.
I don't even know if that's something they tell everyone who they reject or not.
I just don't know what to do:(