I don’t really even know how to start typing this out, or how to describe what I’m feeling. Part of me is hesitant of asking for any help because I’m not sure if what I’m going through is an actual problem or not. I go to work everyday and it’s fine, but when I get back home all the demons come out. I basically go into an existential thought spiral.. I then proceed to smoke and drink my way out of it... pass out... and then go to work the next day like everything’s fine. This is a daily occurrence. I’ve tried going out and making friends doing hobbies and shit. I’ve been successful at it, but somehow that’s not enough for me? I don’t get it... I’m not suicidal, but at the same time I’m finding it hard to reason about my own existence. Like tf am I alive for? I’m quite literally living to pay off my student debt so my parents don’t suffer. I can’t find any other reasons to exist. Is that as far as my utility goes? I should be grateful, and I totally am! I’m very privileged to be in my position at the age I am... but fuck, was it worth any amount of struggle if it meant I was just going to spend every lonely moment smoking weed and drinking whisky? It’s not like I don’t go out and do things on weekends and stuff either.. which makes this even harder to diagnose. I used to really want to create stuff all the time.. but going to work completely doused that fire. I don’t see the point. Fuck I’m cynical. I want to say this is normal... but I’m not entirely sure. If you’ve read this far, do you think I should see a doctor? Or would it be a waste of time?
Always good to talk it out with someone
Without reading your sob story yes. If you have to ask the answer is yes!!
If you have to ask, then yes. Go see a therapist, and tell them exactly what you said here. Then ask them "do you think you can help?" I am pretty sure the answer will be yes. Then the next step if to try it and decide for yourself if they are helping. Dont feel ashamed about it, and dont try to rationalize it. Depression, anxiety are the fucking worst. Much better to try and reach out to someone rather than leave it and hope it goes away (usually it doesnt)
Hey, this is the text book version of depression. In addition to therapy, I highly recommend working out, yoga and meditation. PM me and I can recommend some places to you. Also, don't drink every day. Alcohol is a depressant. What kind of food do you eat? I suspect you are low on vitamins B, D and maybe even the omegas.
Also, a lot of psychiatrists will try to put you on Zoloft, Wellbutrin etc. Before you go down that path try intense working out and meditation for a month. I took those ssris 5 years back and it caused me weight gain, and low attention span. Take it only if you continue to feel this way. CBD oil also helps. Check out full spectrum CBD oil from Charlottes Web.
If you have to ask, yes
Quarter life crisis, classic and totally normal. Questioning yourself, looking for reasons, etc. Spend some time researching it, reading a few books, come with terms that that’s happening and keep moving.
I had the same feeling a few years ago. I quit my job and started doing stuff that made me happy - reading, taking online courses, running, building apps, learning to cook new stuff, going to product meet ups. I recovered my mojo after about a year and got back to a regular job with a new outlook to life. I realized I wasn’t happy with anything and everything when I was comparing my life to what could’ve been, but the break helped me find myself. I’m really happy with life and work now. Hopefully you or a therapist can help fix it for you.
I used to be the same way. Alcohol was a way just to numb myself for a few hours and make time go by faster. I’m sorry. I don’t have an answer of how to make it all feel better.
Yeah. You should talk to someone to help you get a better perspective of yourself and why you live the way you do. Either way it will be beneficial to be a better you.
U should understand, not everyone is happy with the same mundane routine, which others ignorantly live.