What’s the point anymore

Microsoft 5’6 Indian
Mar 11, 2018 28 Comments

I keep trying to cope by telling myself that you don’t need a high iq to get in to google. That I’m so close and I just missed it. But that’s idiotic. I failed 15+ phone interviews. I’m the most mediocre guy at algorithms ever. Every day I get up and curse myself for being so genetically inferior. Short, ugly face, and never will amount to having any prestige in life. I look around and see all these men with strong nose bridges and prognathic maxillas and tries to live vicariously through them, what it must be like to be physically attractive and have fulfilling lives. I see my friends on linkedin who all work at snap and google and wonder how amazing their lives have been, they’re genetic code empowering them to manipulate complex algorithm problems in their head. And then there’s me, who fails at the simplest algorithm problems, who can’t pass a fucking phone screen .

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  • Pinterest / Eng kirrly
    You must be a fun first date.
    Mar 11, 2018 1
    • Microsoft 5’6 Indian
      OP
      Never had one. My face is too ugly
      Mar 11, 2018
  • Facebook QSww36
    Software interviews are not an indication of your worth. Google is not some sort of panacea. Focus on what you are good at, and then get better at it. You will be fine, being bad at the artificial environment of a coding interview is no indication of your ability. And you freaking work at Microsoft. Relax.
    Mar 11, 2018 3
    • Microsoft 5’6 Indian
      OP
      Google is a panacea. At least 80% of my shitty life is driven from the fact that I’m too stupid to pass a phone screen. You’re not as retarded as me you wouldn’t know
      Mar 11, 2018
    • Facebook EqMc07
      This clown used to work at Amazon and cried how shitty it was.

      Now he is at Microsoft and doing the same thing.
      Mar 11, 2018
    • Microsoft 5’6 Indian
      OP
      Good job articulating something that wasn’t hidden. You’re already at Facebook you have nothing to prove
      Mar 11, 2018
  • Microsoft / Eng Dr.13
    Didn't you just make a similar post like a day ago talking about the same thing? Except that time you were working for Amazon?

    .... Where do you really work? I'd laugh if after all this it was Google.
    Mar 11, 2018 4
    • Microsoft 5’6 Indian
      OP
      That was a different guy
      Mar 11, 2018
    • Facebook / Eng digipan
      What’s with Blind and self-loathing Indians?
      Mar 11, 2018
    • Amazon Ex-Spanker
      Apparently that’s a racist question
      Mar 11, 2018
    • Facebook / Eng digipan
      I guess I should stop crying and work on that.
      Mar 12, 2018
  • Facebook EqMc07
    The Indian guy is back again.
    Mar 11, 2018 0
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    • Microsoft 5’6 Indian
      OP
      You work at Airbnb, you wouldn’t know my pain, you were born genetically gifted
      Mar 11, 2018
  • Uber lklb
    1. Remember that there are people who are much smarter and more hard working than you, but are in worse situations than you are.
    2. See a therapist.
    3. Learn to love yourself. If you continue like this, you're looking at a horrible life ahead.
    4. I have deep compassion for you.
    5. Joining Google (or any other company) would not solve your issues. It would just move the goal post to something else.
    Mar 12, 2018 0
  • Google cac_cac
    I work at Google, have 15% bodyfat and a visible 6 packs (took lots of work, not genetics). Decently look, and I have shitty social life in the Bay area. I have shitty personality so never got passed date 2,3. Life is what you make of it man. Just bc someones good at interviewing and algo and is attractive doesn't mean everything is super easy for them
    Mar 13, 2018 0
  • New / Design Isaiah
    You seem suicidal.

    You are focusing on a badge of prestige based on where you work to make it yourself feel worthwhile, approved/validated.

    With the badge, your the most annoying and cock guy around.
    Without the badge you feel as if you are nothing.

    What would happen if you went blind, or you become . Too old? I bet it wouldn't matter how well you could Code.

    Take some time to build a life of substance and significance that you yourself can be proud of on your deathbed.

    Working here. Or working there probably feels. Empty if it's the only accomplishments you can have engraved on your tombstone.

    Take risks, and do things that others may not approve of but are apart of what make you a well rounded person.

    Mar 12, 2018 0
  • Lyft pooof
    Shut up and do moar leetcode
    Mar 11, 2018 0
  • Salesforce cfj372
    Clear your head, fap
    Mar 11, 2018 0
  • Rubicon Project yoyo93
    Dude Microsoft ain’t bad at all
    Mar 11, 2018 1
    • Microsoft 5’6 Indian
      OP
      It’s not snapchat or google. I’m a shitty engineer who couldn’t get past the first round of anything.
      Mar 11, 2018
  • Capital One / HR
    mokka!!!

    Capital One HR

    PRE
    500 Startups
    BIO
    A man rights activist
    mokka!!!more
    The problem is you are comparing your self with others... and you always need someone’s opinions for you to feel confident... which shows low confidence and self esteem..

    Believe in your self... you are 1 in billion sperm who get the life 😎... you are born winner... face doesn’t matter... even Tom cruise has divorce and being alone... many celebrities who are hot as hell have multiple partners but not able to have a stable and steady life... yes they can get sex and so you by paying some money... now about the professional life it all depends on what you know and remember things at the time of interview what interviewer knows... so basically interviews are all about checking what interviewer knows whether you know it or not... now it depends on case to case basis... believe me I change 10 companies in my 14 years of career and I am usually crack offers in 1-2 rounds... but what I have observed that very less technical work compare to what being asked... enjoy your life buddy because no one knows when there will be call to go back home(death)
    Nov 5, 2018 0
  • Tinder / Eng
    hgrfvhh

    Tinder Eng

    PRE
    Microsoft
    hgrfvhhmore
    Didn't you work at Amazon before?
    Mar 11, 2018 1
    • Microsoft Wilsonn
      Yes he did, now he’s here writing shitty code. Proof that our interviews suck
      Mar 12, 2018
  • Airbnb / Eng
    BrianC

    Airbnb Eng

    PRE
    500 Startups
    BrianCmore
    Stop making excuses for yourself and stop wallowing on blind, that isn’t going to help you
    Mar 13, 2018 0
  • Citibank / Eng IHateBanks
    I work at a bank, worst for a guy who does leetcode everyday. I’m hoping my practice will one day pay off and I will join one of FANG. I don’t understand your problem. Have you tried everything? Have you solved all kinds of algorithmic problems?
    Mar 12, 2018 0
  • Google RichChigga
    Get laid?
    Mar 12, 2018 0
  • Tumblr elwE87
    This was a... harrowing read. I remember reaching out similarly several months ago on this platform and it turned out to be a bit of an inflection point for me in my emotional development.

    I'm not as good at advice as some of the others on here, and that's kind of the point - you don't have to be good at everything. You might just be a round peg in a square hole, my friend.
    Mar 12, 2018 0
  • Vanguard / Eng Boglehead
    Beta af bro
    Mar 12, 2018 0

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