feeling stuck and depressed

New WshQ18
Sep 11 39 Comments

I have been working as a software developer (C++) in an unknown company in The middle east, it has always been a dream of mine to live abroad(especially in the usa) and I want to work at one of the fang companies because frankly it will facilitate that as you know but in order to do so I have to work at my nooks and crannies of my free time in problem solving (leetcode grind) meanwhile my programming languages are kinda limited i am not strong at either at web/mobile development and this job i am working at seems like one of the fewest fits for me and its salary is low AF and it kinda sucks environment wise .. so how can I get the f out of here ..please kindly advise i am 24 and i feel like i have never lived a single day of my life happily..

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  • Google / Eng db32
    Why not do a master's in the us?
    Sep 11 9
    • New WshQ18
      OP
      Well from what I heard you take a 9 month on campus then you take a loan from a bank and they help you find an internship to pay for this loan .. now I don’t know much about it’s reputation it’s really mixed reviews I have seen some people calling it a cult .. on the other hand Jimy Carrey performed at one of the graduations ceremonies.. not that I am a big fan or anything lol
      Sep 11
    • Don't do it. You need to get into g or fb, they both use c++ heavily. That school won't get you hired by them.
      Sep 11
    • New WshQ18
      OP
      Well I don’t know if I have high chance of joining g or f while living in the Middle East I have known few who managed to get an internship at Facebook London .. you think I have a shot at that as a beginning to visa journey ?
      Sep 11
    • Google / Mgmt hoooli.xyz
      On the other hand if maharishi was day 1 cpt, you have good chance at getting jailed and deported. You have to judge if that's better than your current situation 🤷🏽‍♂️

      US isn't like middle East where laws can be 'bent'. You get caught, it stays on your records. Every damn time you leave country and come back you have to give a brutal summary of what happened and likely get rejection of visa or entry.
      Sep 11
    • I think you have a shot at applying to a real university masters program and using that as your springboard in to fang
      Sep 11
  • Amazon goldfish_
    Fuc.. I have never lived a single day in my life happily after joining faang (amazon to be precise).. before that it was all good even at 1/4th TC
    Sep 11 9
    • Amazon goldfish_
      Read about some threads about toxic culture at Amazon..
      I'm facing all of that.. Toxic management, shittest work ever, can't trust teammates, people putting positive reviews for manager to avoid getting fired, u need to say yes to everything...
      Sep 11
    • New WshQ18
      OP
      Fuck mate well I wish you the best bro but which office is this .. Seattle ?
      Sep 11
    • T-Mobile fun)))
      Shit culture eh
      Sep 11
    • New WshQ18
      OP
      You know what .. it doesn’t even matter as it can be risky to disclose this but I wish you the best in your career bro
      Sep 11
    • Amazon goldfish_
      It's not risky.. Thousands of slaves here..
      Thanks, I am planning to move out in 2-3 months
      Sep 11
  • New WshQ18
    OP
    Ok guys I didn’t really wanna say this because I have never said it before .. I am gay and where I come from you can be put to jail for it and unfortunately also I will be losing the closest and dearest people to my heart once they find out .. I have lived in the closest ever since i was 14 .. always felt different and wrong for feeling what I feel .. I have never been in love or had a close friend who accepts me for who I am so if you got a mean comment please spare me your f***ing time because I didn’t choose this I wish I wasn’t gay ..I feel like most of my life I have been rebellious against my own well being and mental health . And I want to set a plan to focus on my own happiness .. to get the fuck out of here and live my life openly and have people who don’t carry prejudice .. this is the community I have always dreamed of and if I can’t have that I will be like what I am today dead inside with no aspiration in life
    Sep 11 9
    • New WshQ18
      OP
      Like 3 from my school got an internship in Facebook London
      Sep 11
    • Google superpower
      Good University is like top 50-60 maybe.

      Stanford is one of the world's best.

      The easy one's are ut Arlington, ut Dallas, suny buffalo, nyu tondon, northeastern, ui Chicago, Syracuse, umbc, connecticut, suny Binghamton... Anything between rank 30-60 should be easy. 45-60 very easy.
      Sep 11
    • New WshQ18
      OP
      I can’t thank you enough for taking the time to help me out ..I understand your saying Stanford may be out of reach .. but the colleges you mentioned are your top picks or random naming ?
      Sep 11
    • Google superpower
      These colleges are are all the easy one's which can admit you with little efforts. They are still considered ok from uscis point of view. The day one cpt colleges are pretty much scam and uscis may deport those people at any time. The above universities are ok from uscis POV and easy to get into. Also I have seen people from these universities into FAANG.
      You should try to get into as good University as possible. Do the research about universities.
      Sep 11
    • Google / Mgmt hoooli.xyz
      There are 2 types of day 1 cpt colleges. Ones that have been caught and others who haven't yet.

      +1 to everything superpower said.
      Sep 11
  • Splunk tgrmqw
    You are just a kid. Have fun and do things which interest you. This FANG and TC shit has gone out of control. Don’t believe everything posted in blind.

    If you are still interested plan and prioritize the process. It does not need to be a one month target but prepare for a longer time. Good luck.
    Sep 11 3
    • Amazon goldfish_
      Kid but psychotic kid
      Sep 11
    • New WshQ18
      OP
      I don’t go out I feel so out of place here .. there is so much injustice in the Middle East .. it’s suffocating .. It sucks
      Sep 11
    • Google / Eng xmastree
      Lol. Typical first-world argument.
      Sep 11
  • New WshQ18
    OP
    I really feel like I am failing big time due to my depression I come home from work and I feel like doing nothing at all.. I need to get out of here ASAP
    Sep 11 0
  • New WshQ18
    OP
    And I wake up at 6 and get from work around 7 or 8 for the shittiest salary .. I have no close friends .. I always put a wall in fear anyone notices .. I don’t even have the motivation but I know it’s only me who can get me out of this situation and a plan is what I came here for to have
    Sep 11 2
    • Google / Mgmt hoooli.xyz
      You are depressed. Please seek help.
      Sep 11
    • New WshQ18
      OP
      No one can help me here .. only help I can get is out of here
      Sep 11
  • New WshQ18
    OP
    There is the option of Maharishi university if anyone knows of it and can recommend it
    Sep 11 0

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