I think I’m going through depression

Intuit / Other
aby55

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aby55
Feb 14, 2019 25 Comments

Everything in my personal life is fine but after facing disappointment time and time again at work, I’m feeling really low. Seems like no matter what I do or how much I contribute or how good the outcomes are, nothing is good enough to move ahead in my career here.

I put my all into the work I do and yet, I keep on having to start over and over again. Now I’ve been assigned on a new project. I feel heartbroken, defeated, and crushed. Trying to keep my spirits up but can’t help feeling all this self doubt and sadness well up. I literally feel physically weighed down by it and not motivated at all anymore.

I’ve stuck around because I really do care about the work I do and am passionate about the problems we try to solve for customers in this space.

How do I get over this?

TC 210k
YoE 8

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  • Amazon / Eng
    Mango!

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    Mango!
    Firstly i would suggest not to over think about work after office hours. Start playing any sports after work, or go for running it can for sure release stress and keeps you motivated. I had the same issue of not being promoted on time, had argument with leadership and so on. But i started not giving fuck and eventually everything turned out good. Have a talk with your mentor or some one in your organization about your problem and ask for solution. Discussing your problem within your team can at least give you a path forward. Hope it helps !!
    Feb 14, 2019 2
  • help others... stop just thinking about yourself. in the process of helping others you'll discover joy
    Feb 14, 2019 1
    • Boeing / Eng
      0xC3

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      0xC3
      OP is trying to help others. They mentioned they’re passionate about the problems for their customers. The projects getting cut or they’re being put on other projects, denying them that satisfaction.
      Feb 14, 2019
  • I feel the same way. I’ve scheduled an appointment to see a therapist on Friday. It’s work and personal issues plaguing me. Maybe you should see someone,
    Feb 14, 2019 2
    • Intuit / Other
      aby55

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      aby55
      OP
      I’ve considered it but not sure it will help. I’m already strapped on time as is and I don’t know others who have gone to a therapist for something like this.

      Please DM me to let me know how yours went and whether it was helpful.
      Feb 14, 2019
    • @MSFT
      What are your issues, to the extent you could share anonymously
      Feb 14, 2019
  • If it’s any consolation u have more TC then me
    Feb 14, 2019 2
    • Humana
      goldN

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      goldN
      I second that. You make way over what I make. I hope this makes u feel little bit better. I have felt depressed too due to lack of success and opportunities. What can u do? Find solace and happiness in family and friends
      Feb 14, 2019
    • Intuit / Other
      aby55

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      aby55
      OP
      Thanks. I truly hope you surpass my TC. It’s a big reason for why I haven’t moved on, yet.
      Feb 14, 2019
  • Work on your projects regardless of whether your higher ups agree or not.. find a few good friends at work and make it happen, might be several hrs every weekend for a few months but you’ll get traction that way. If you’ve got a good idea it’ll speak for itself. Management can be shortsighted, they need some growth mindset yo.. but you do you man/woman/whatever you want to call yourself, you can do anything you set your mind to
    Feb 14, 2019 2
    • Intuit / Other
      aby55

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      aby55
      OP
      I did this. I’m proud of starting a project, growing a team, getting leadership buy-in, and building it. However, it’s been an uphill battle with various forces (leadership, resources, politics, etc). But now I’ve been taken off of it and moved to something else. I’m not happy about it but I’m also too tired to keep fighting. I did work that was far above my paygrade, and produced great results, but I am left with nothing to show for it. No promotion. No acknowledgement. Just moved over to a new project.
      Feb 14, 2019
    • New
      exxx

      New

      exxx
      Take some time off away from work. Try seeing a therapist. Reassess your priorities and work on a plan to redirect your career. Many of us are dealing with something like this from time to time.
      Feb 14, 2019