I left Amazon because I was really unhappy. After many years there getting consistently promoted, I still felt unhappy and uninspired. I really do believe the environment was not good for me so I left. I got this awesome opportunity over at MS and I’ve been building cool stuff. The politics are concerning and problematic but I do see lots of top down pressure to be “one microsoft” and focus on the customer. The company also talks a ton about taking care of their employees which I appreciate. Still though somethings wrong. I keep moving up and making more money. I’m somehow successful but I don’t really know how or why. For some reason I’m just not happy. I wake up every morning for work feeling anxiety. Every time we get new marching orders I just stress out. Even though everything is manageable. I just feel like it’s harming my mental and physical health but I can’t put my finger on why. Trying to see a therapist but they’re all booked up these days (still trying though) Is this feeling of a never ending rat race just how it is? I started doing math to see how early I could retire so I can count the years I have left doing this stuff. Every time I have a vacation I feel a weight lifted off and I’m back to myself but then I go to work and it’s just sinking back immediately. I used to get new direction and get excited and learning how to accomplish something new. Now I just feel tired and unhappy. And I’m only in my mid 30s!!!!! Any advice would be great. I’m just worried now that I’m 5 months into my new job and I’m not feeling better.
Yes you are burnt out. Do you know what will inspire you ?
Same here. Waiting for a break to try and rejuvenate
While you should get medical help, one tip could be - dedicate 1 hour per day to yourself. In this 1 hour do something good for mind and body. Example- Exercise, meditation, watch something funny or inspirational. Slowly things will settle down. You are not alone to feel like that in mid 30s. Life is teaching you to get serious about “yourself”.
I started practicing mindfulness but I’m in early stages. I’ve also carved out 3 workouts a week. I’m looking to maybe expand that but I feel happy I’ve maintained that for 6 months so far while in a high-ish position at MS. Agree for sure I need to get serious about myself.
Are you learning new skills or improve the current ones you have ? Are you bored at work ?
I am learning new skills for sure. I’m learning a lot. I’m feeling a bit aimless though.
I went through the same thing. Get therapy, take time off and asses what REALLY important to you. For me it was working for a company the holds my value system. I took a year off
Try pure CBD Oil
Smoking pot does help but I don’t want that to be the solution.
Not smoking pot..CBD oil doesn't have THC. It doesnt make you high. It just helps you with the anxiety balancing your body chemical reaction. Research it.. this is very safe. https://koicbd.com/product/koi-naturals/ Also combine with sports. Both will help you restoring positive feeling. If you go to psychologists the alternative maybe medications if you are clinically depressed.. i would prefer cbd oil instead...
Yeah I know what you mean ... Do you have family and a good friends circle nearby ? It's important to dedicate time to those areas. That is worth much more than any job promo ...
Family yes. I’ve pulled away from friends though. Something I want to fix but having trouble finding the energy after work to force myself to hang out with friends.
The best thing is to Meditate every day in the morning and night for 15 minutes each. You will see a difference in a month. It’s a rat race and even if you become ceo you are still a rat. Just be happy and compare your self and think that you are better than 99 percent of the world.
I know but this makes me feel guilty. Like I have a good partner, kids on the way, awesome dogs, and despite feeling like I have NO IDEA what I’m doing, I keep moving up. I’m making more money than I ever dreamed of and I’m happy with my compensation. I shouldn’t be depressed.
How do you medidate?
You’re burned out. Me too. I get stressed out more easily than I ever did in my 20s and it sucks. I always feel better after a long vacation.
You sound burnt out. You should consider taking a sabbatical like 2-3 months. Also therapy