Did you ever just get up and leave?

Was it the worst or best decision of your life?

I'm 26, live at home (because covid), have no friends and too many expectations from family. (I'm a failure. Cannot make the same career mistakes as my parents otherwise I'll be unemployable in 20 years. When I decided to join Google, I was told I'm a disappointment because I didn't join a startup. Friends aren't important and I need to get married asap. Need to get a grad degree or I'm a failure.) It's left me terrified make decisions. What if I make the "wrong" one and failure and disappoint my family? If I start a part-time grad program, I won't have time to find someone to marry??

I'm trapped and I've started thinking about ending it all (don't think I'd actually do it) and it scares me. There has to be more to life than this. I want to get up, leave, move to a different state/country and just travel, experience life instead of being in this suffocating environment. But how the fuck do I get out and will it help?

Edit: I booked my first solo trip for next month and I feel SO MUCH better. It's a small step in hopefully the right direction. Thank you to everyone who comments and messages me personally. For the first time in years, I feel like I can take control of my own life and it's amazing. Just, thank you!