Existential crisis and the absurd

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geoff who

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I'm stuck in the deep rabbit hole of the absurd and my depression has gotten worse over the years due to existential crisis. I have lost empathy for anything and I barely experience any emotions. I feel like I am slowly turning into a sociopath. How do I get help? Any therapist/psychiatrist you recommend in Seattle? I don't need someone who's only going to tell me everything is gonna be fine and other bs of that nature. Never gone to therapy before cuz I never believe in it and it has been heavily commercialized in this woke culture.

TC: less than yours.

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  • PwC
    mlk4996

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    mlk4996
    Therapy is useless. In fact, therapists are akin to Stasi officers from the good ol DDR days.
    Unfortunately, what you are going through is nothing but a side effect of the society we live in. There’s no other option but to cope.
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    • They turned you into a group normie ;) . Therapy feels like another cult Kool aid mindset.
      No offense. Just my take on it. Therapists are supposed to report to the authorities if they hear anything wrong. Why would you trust them?
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    • Financial Service Company
      xLis38

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      xLis38
      Palo alto, I'm not offended. If you actually engage in therapy it is an extremely individual experience. I don't know really what a "group normie" is, but if you're referring to the fact that psychologists are educated and use information about psychology that has been accumulated by the "group" that is humanity, sure. But I don't think you would suggest that leveraging the human knowledge base to accomplish something is inherently bad. I don't believe you're engaging with me in good faith at this point, I'm still pushing back on you in case someone else reading this is on the fence about going to therapy. Your therapist is not supposed to report you if they "hear anything wrong", it's only if something they hear means someone is in imminent mortal danger. I don't know the exact rule but it's something like that
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    Shaadi.com

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    Shaadi.com
    Do you have pets? Keep a cat or dog.
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    • Amazon
      geoff who

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      geoff who
      OP
      I don't have many friends either but I don't feel bad about it. In fact I don't really want any friend. You sound like a nice person but I hate to say this: breeding dogs/cats is so selfish of humans that we have to control the evolution of a species just so we could take advantage of the love they give. I'm not pro peta but also think about the cows or chickens next time you eat it. They exist only to be butchered and served on our tables.
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      Shaadi.com

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      Stupid.. no one is stopping you from petting a cow.. go to a farm and get some cows goats or whatever you want..
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    d00dinh00d

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    d00dinh00d
    Stop drinkin stop weed stop gambling stop tobacco. Do a dopamine detox and you'll be golden. The fastest therapy ever? Drop all addictions, they're bad for a reason. Be honest with yourself, overcome your life trauma. Pay your debts and tell the people you hurt that you are sorry and try to fix it. And that's about it, you defo at least fit in 50% of what I mentioned so that's what you have to fix to be good with yourself and content . So you'll either believe an internet stranger about this or you'll realise that yourself in the next decade or two. Also it's not gonna be good, it's gonna be rough and very difficult to overcome your issues, but in the end if you keep at it it will profit you so much you'll feel like a newborn. Been there done that, so yea I know what I'm saying. If you want OP or anyone other drop me a PM if you need to talk, I've been through it all.
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    • Amazon
      geoff who

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      Thinking about metaphysics is not complicating things. It is the very basis of existence and can guide you to find answers to the whys in your everyday life. Ever heard of the saying when in doubt zoom out? People tend to focus too much on their day to day activities because it's easier to understand. We ignore the abstraction of being because we are too powerless to do anything about it.
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    • Nonsense. Read Camus
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    kNUJ50

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    kNUJ50
    Consider leaving amazon. Try something else for a year.
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  • Hey Friend, I'll share what worked for me. I quit, or rather let company fire me so I'd get unemployment. I wanted to get FMLA but didn't know how to get it so that didn't happen. First I just slept and slept. I had no passion. But I made sure to go out daily stroll quietly 4 miles a day at least. I'd have joined gym if it wasn't for covid.

    Then over few weeks, I downloaded old games I used to play: played for a week and then uninstalled them. Then got bored again. I think that's the key. You want to reach a place where you are bored again. Boredom is the first step.

    Then I started making youtube videos didn't care about quality just putting arguments I'd have with a friend into sound only video. After 10 or so videos, I felt bored again, so I started to want some animation and started to teach myself after effects, and I just followed tutorials with no rush. After a month I was making complicated animations and what not in AE. It was something new, fun, but small and doable.

    Again after 30 or so videos I felt I have had it... another recurring theme... just let yourself drift. Then I got into reading books, read like 500 pages. Then I was sick of reading too, tried audio books (lot of self help books and biz books are garbage lol).

    Got into anime. Got sick of it. It seems like I'm bouncing from place to place, but at least now I "want" something, not apathetic about everything. Over the course of 6 months I feel I am back to normal. Last few months so I watched lot of algo/DS/Design videos and passed meta/google/linkedin all at once. It pays to be in the happy place which is easier to get to if you are slow and steady.
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    • Amazon
      geoff who

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      geoff who
      OP
      I hike a lot. But I don't really think it makes me feel better. I just do it to kill time. Maybe I don't appreciate nature enough.
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    • It was because of the job that I had accepted being powerless and thus became apathetic. In my mind, I had no control so wanting to do anything was like a rock dreaming about doing things, when it's just at whims of natural forces. Quitting over bearing toxic job allowed me to be free, then bored, then act, then series of acts allowed me to gain sense self control which then led to interests and passion. If you have been slave long enough, you don't even fancy running away at some point.
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