Feel like I'm stagnating and alone
tl;dr - 10 months since hire date, still no one knows what exactly my role is going to be, still haven't learned a whole lot. It's driving me nuts and I don't know what I can do short of quitting since I still like the company, culture, and people, I just want someone to give a fuck about me.
I posted several months ago about how no one on my team seemed to know what to do with me; I'm QA Automation/SDET, not a full dev/SDE. YOE: 2+, getting on 3. The situation seems to only have become worse. I feel like 80+% of my time is spent doing manual testing, waiting for people to respond to emails that drag out my tickets and make it look like I'm just taking forever, and wondering what's wrong with the setup I have of my company's proprietary hardware while my entire team just kinda goes "lol works on my machine". My manager just recently had to go out on extended sick leave due to a hospitalization, and now I feel completely stuck since he was probably the only person on the team who gave a remote heck whether or not I was able to do something or if I was at least actively doing some kind of code work for a bit. Few things:
- My director is the one who doles out tickets, but we all have a say in them to an extent
- There are plenty of things that I've noticed suck and would like to fix, but highly doubt i'd get permission to tackle because of our current priorities and the fact that I'd have to learn so much
- I get ZERO feedback on the code work that I AM given except if it's completely missing the requirements: so long as the job is done and it works, the ticket and review are closed
While everyone's cordial and nice at the company (haven't seen anything particularly strange), I still don't know/really talk to anyone outside of my team outside of asking questions, and there haven't been any social events since the holiday party. My social situation in my personal life has suffered as well, which is what I was leaning on, so the isolation has doubled down. I'm not sure if I should hit leetcode/Pluralsight and look for a new job. It's not like the company culture is bad or anything (no kool-aid that I'm told to chug, schedule is flexible, most people aim for the 9-5 lifestyle), and the benefits are really good (aside from my pay), but any new or interesting problems were immediately handed off to my manager. Now that he's on leave, they're all handed to one of the SDEs who joined my SDET team, who was friends with my manager. And he's kinda just been knocking the tickets he's been given out of the park; meanwhile, my eyes glaze over as I sit and wait for one of our products to install or chase down instructions that don't even exist in Confluence. It actually kills any motivation I have to learn new things because I don't even want to think about anything related to programming after a day of that. I think the most I've been able to do is learn a little bit about android dev with java during night classes, basics about c# Funcs, and a bit about async/await with c#'s TPL.
Send help. (TC attached, as per Blind law 👌)