I am miserable at my current job and want to find something fulfilling or start working freelance, suggestions?
I’m currently on my fourth year working for this company as a software developer, my title does not reflect what I do though. I feel like they just gave me a random job tittle that would match the salary grade they offered me. I’ve built over 5 applications from the ground up , tens of thousands of lines of code, and maintain and manage each one of them independently with no help from anyone else. I’ve gotten pats on the back in terms of recognition, but the reality is that I’m financially struggling to make ends meet and I’m extremely unhappy with my current role and life. I feel extremely undervalued and underappreciated and would have expected a bump in my salary grade and job title by now. The problem is that they have me mainly working on an outdated microsoft stack so my experience with more relevant stacks is starting to lag behind the competition. So 4 years in Im struggling to find any interest in me as a candidate, I also consistently bomb technical interviews because I am out of practice in terms of the fundamentals. I would love to study and work on my own personal projects during off hours but I end up spending 2 hours each way to commute
to this job, so my days are usually 12-13 hours long; by the time I get home Im extremely exhausted. The reason I live so far away is because I dont even get paid enough to be able go afford to live in the area, not to mention quality of life sucks around here anyways for what I would barely be able to afford (in the event of having no debt). I just want to quit at this point with 0 financial security and 0 prospects of any work in hopes that this will put me in fight or flight mode, and ill HAVE to try my hardest to secure something before running aground. I know it sounds stupid and unrealistic, but the amount of time my current job eats into my time is what I ultimately see as hindering my ability to find a new job or work hard on my personal projects. I know it would be unwise to focus on pursuing freelance work without building a network of contact’s and referral’s, but it circles back to this catch 22 of a situation I find myself in. I’ve consistently tried to stay patient and positive to do this the right way (i.e.: interview for a new position while actively working here, study as much as i can with as little time that i have to ensures success with any potential interviews, work on my own portfolio of projects and build up my personal business), but I honestly dont know if I can do it anymore. I am sacrificing too much of my own happiness playing this waiting game. So much so that I cant find the strength to make it happen “the right way”. Please share with me any suggestions you can give me, I need to find an escape route soon.