I feel so pathetic to have reached this level, I have so much respect for him and I look at him as a mentor but he fuckin trivializes everything that I do, he asks me to finish tasks in half the time. He won’t know the depth of work but asks me to deliver the code in couple of days. I am feeling it hard to explain it to him, never fuckin acknowledges the work I do. When I try to explain things he starts frowning, change in body language. Fine, if he’s trying to train me, but I need a balance, my average working hours over last 6 months is 12hrs including saturdays 😭. when I explain this to him, he says “we expect you to do things faster”(fuck off you moron) It’s been 3 days that I have done proper work, I just realized that inducing so much pressure has made me not do work and I just feel like showing 🖕🏻when asked for status. I don’t want to be in this shithole. I work at Apple. I can potentially develop a product bottom to top. Base:125 I want to work at a place where I feel respected, valued for my work and then compensated right. Things holding me back: edu loan, still on F1 opt, about to get married. Don’t know what to do. 😔😔😔😔😔😔
Go somewhere else.
Apple...looks good from outside, but inside there are many worms.
At least you didnt work 100 hours a week then never get equity under steve jobs....apple is full of slave drivers.
Is he same with others or you are being targeted ?
Same with others too.. but they have more accomplishments than me so they can talk back but me being a newbie here
You know... if you a shoe hurts you get a different one. Change teams. He ain’t god. No jerk is worth losing your personal happiness over
That is such a great advice. Thank you for this comment 🤝✨♥️🌈
True.. thanks a lot
Apple is like this. Didn’t you read the hundreds of other similar posts on Blind?
No , I haven’t
I hope you have your 1-1s every week. Be bold and create an agenda of all the points you mentioned above. Tell him you are feeling the burnout due to this unnecessary stress. Tell him you want to contribute your best and how the status quo is not allowing to give your best. Post back the results for us to slide/dice. Do NOT leave your job just because you have a bad manager.
Thanks for the suggestion, I have spoken to my manager, he didn’t understand, when I start talking what he doesn’t like he starts frowning, Spoke to his manager, he told its gonna be like this and I have to adapt. I will gather some more courage and bring up this problem..
Great advice ✨ Thank you for your comment 🤝🙏🏼✨
Your manager is psycho and master manipulator. I would accept the situation, relax and leetcode, then start looking.
Why not look for internal transfer to other jobs at Apple? Or find a job outside
I don’t meet the criteria for an internal transfer, minimum a year at apple.
A job outside, is something I want to do, I need to tune my brain for interviews again. Will do it if this continues.