the reason why I wrote this post is that I can feel maybe there are many people in the blind community also suffered from the similar situation.
There are some background first, I failed google's phone screen 3 months ago, and realized that I was underprepared.
Then 3 months later, I prep intensively and applied for facebook, here are some quick update for my current status:
1. I'm applying for a SWE E5 role.
2. I had an on-site interview 2 weeks ago.
TBH, after the onsite, I felt nothing but relief.
There were a standard 4 round interview. (2 coding, 1 behavior, 1 system design)
How was the interview?
My thought is that my opinion is totally irrelevant, since "doing well" is a pretty subjective thing.
Besides that, almost all well-trained interviewers will make the interview like a breeze, even you stuck, you still feel you're making progress through their assistant.
One week later, there's no hear back, so I reached out my recruiter as I usually do.
The recruiter replied instantly, and I got the message that my packet is going to go through the review next week.
Wow, the review? What does it even mean?
I knew the best way to find out is reaching my recruiter again, but I thought if I were him/her I'll feel this candidate is needy.
Instead, I found this very helpful thread that elaborating the whole process pretty well:
At least it's not yet a rejection, I thought.
And getting into the candidate review, sounds not bad, huh?
But soon(maybe one hour later), I can't stop wondering about what if "the review" only means for "debrief",
last week is holiday, so I can assume they move around the schedule for it.
That means I might still get rejected by one of the interviewers who doesn't seem like satisfied with my solution.
That's just an example, what I want to say is that the anxiety started killing me.
I've been paranoid and picky to every detail and mistakes I made during the interview.
Finally, I came up a conclusion that they're gonna reject me.
Strangely, I accepted it and calmed down again.
The recruiter might reply me in this week or maybe I will be ghosted.
I also realized you can move on if you truly believe it, that's a lesson learned.
Maybe I'm a super negative person, but being mentally well-prepared for failure do make myself feel better.
Not sure is there anyone is also waiting the painful result like me, but hey, you're not alone.
Sharing my feeling do make me feel even better now, and I also want to thank you for the effort of reading my rambling.
Even you don't believe in yourself, then don't expect other people to have a good impression of you. Start building up your confidence, and stop being so paranoid. It's just Facebook, no need to over think too much.
Worst case scenario is a reject, so what? Just move on, start preparing for next company. Continue with your daily routine and enjoy life.
Honestly, a FB reject means you dodge a bullet. They drive people to commit suicide. With your current mentality and lack of self confidence, how long do you think you will last in FB?