Pip, mental health and no job offer yet- Losing hopes

Hi All,

I was put in pip sometime back and my mental health is impacted to such an extent that I have some concerning health issues now all because of the stress. I am struggling to keep up with my prep due to my health now and that is in turn building a lot of stress. My health is my priority right now but also being on H1B I have to have a job here. I started preparing for interviews only after I was given pivot doc. So I am preparing from scratch. I have no offers yet, being scared of failure I am rescheduling all the interviews as I feel I am not prepared yet. I tend to forget the problems I solved, if I am presented the same problem after somedays I may not be able to solve it. I am struggling to solve medium level ques and have to look for solutions. I cannot identify the pattern in the ques, I sometimes fail to code even if I understand the logic. I am not spending enough time thinking about the solution and rather start looking in the discussion section for the answer. I have very limited time to bag another job. I feel I’m the dumbest person on this planet who cannot solve some of the easiest problems. I am not improving on LC. I am scared of interviews now, I go blank and my brain freezes. I am taking therapy sessions but that is not helping me, my therapist says I am in severe depression , that my stress has infested and is showing the impact on my health. I am at the lowest point in my life and losing hopes.
I see people bagging job being in pip and wonder if I will ever be able to get one.
I want to hear from folks who were in similar situation like me and how did you plan your preparation during pip. I want to hear from someone who was not good at LC or who had to start from scratch and struggled but bagged a job. Please help me on how should I plan my preparation.

Also can someone please suggest some companies which are easy targets.

Please help me. This stress is impacting my health to an extent I am scared for my life. PS - I am on H1B.

Yoe: almost 1.5
Tc: 140k

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