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Wells Fargo / Product
bramage

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bramage
Aug 23, 2019 23 Comments

At what point do you just give the fuck up amd realize no amount of hard work and ‘pulling yourself by the bootstraps’ will ever result in any success in this industry unles youve already been set up from the beginning?

I come from literally nothing, an unwanted child from two hateful parents, homeless at 12, working since that age, putting myself through college on a scholarship (in civil engineering and hating ot but couldnt seitch because i couldnt afford to) then moving on to teach myself how to build websites, then design mobile apps, games, digital advertising, analytics, every fucking thing and I STILL dont measure up. 20 years of this and Ive not moved up in title for 12 of them. constantly laid off by companies. No interest in companies that are actually doing well.

now i deal with panic attacks when thinking about my future. Im not excited or motivated anymore. im just terrified. im sitting here with chest pains working a temp job in my mid 40s frustrated and angry with myself and afraid of being homeless again. I never even considered having a family because Ive struggled to support myself. My own family hasnt had anything to do with me in years.

im sorry for the rant but im completely demoralized. i just want a tiny bit of stability, not having to look for a new job every fucking 9 months. and with a possible recession coming, ive lost hope.

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  • Cadence
    👄Bu

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    Intel Corporation
    👄Bu
    Pm me - lets chat!
    I should be able to find you something in my org.
    Aug 23, 2019 2
  • Oracle / Eng
    aham

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    aham
    Believe in yourself. You have done great so far considering your circumstances. Don't give up now. Seek therapy. I don't know what else to say but please don't lose hope.
    Aug 23, 2019 0
  • Facebook / Ops
    YtXR43

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    Facebook
    YtXR43
    You are not a failure bro, you are working hard, you had a really hard life and it makes you stronger!

    I’m sure you will be fine
    Aug 23, 2019 0
  • New
    Stunt

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    Stunt
    We don’t give up bro. We never give up. I also had panic attacks but you just have to push through. It can only go up from here.
    Aug 23, 2019 0
  • Apple
    🥭mango

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    🥭mango
    With that skillset, you should be able to find a stable job.

    I would say focus on your interview skills.

    People talk a lot about FAANG and high Salaries, but thats not all

    I would look at all options including Indian Service companies like Infosys, Wipro, Cognizant, HCL. These companies pay decently well and are stable. I am guessing you are a US citizen and they are always looking to hire Citizens to improve their employee ratio, use it to ur advantage
    Aug 23, 2019 2