i recently got diagnosed with a bunch of illnesses, im only 20. it gives me discomfort throughout my whole body and its miserable. honestly the only reason im still trying is because of my girlfriend. im looking at old photos and just thinking about how i wont ever do any of the things i wanted to in life. i cant travel to the places i planned, i dont have enough energy to move up in my life (career/education), plans are impossible with busy friends due to the unpredictable flare of my illness. my current job is pure torture just because my body cant handle sitting up for long periods. i wish i did more when i was younger. im stuck in the same town, losing friends who move on to new things, and just feel like im in a slow rot till its over. ive been crying too much because i just dream of living a normal life. i cant eat anything because my stomach hurts, i can barely read because my vision blurs, i cant play piano because i can barely sit up, i cant go out because walking is worse, i barely take showers because the sensation of water is miserable. i sit all home all day feeling my body slow give up on itself im starting to give up, blind. how can life be worth living like this? everything ive ever wanted is being ripped from my very soul i attached a picture of an example of how my heart looks daily
Hope is a good thing. Maybe the best of things and no good thing ever dies. Tough times happen to all of us although in varying degrees. Always keep your chin up and flick away bad thoughts with positive reinforcements. If it’s a medical condition, please get advice from the doctors. All we have to do on our end is to stay positive and see the light at the end of the tunnel. Worrying will only make it worse. If you want to talk at any time, please DM and will share my personal contact.
I wish anything I could say would actually help, but I know life doesn't work that way. So I'm just sorry, sorry life dealt you bad cards. I hope you continue to find at least small sparkles in life that bring you joy
Only way to move forward is acceptance.
I don’t know what is your sickness and I will probably not say anything that will comfort you. What I remember is having a sickness for few years where my lung collapsed. During few years my heart was like your and I thought I will never travel again. Even a small walk will make my heart going to 150BPM. I can understand maybe 1% of what you are enduring and I’m deeply sorry for you and really hope it’s going to go better. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 I would recommend to try to get as many medical advices you can. Do not surrender, people love you. You can speak to any of us. I’m happy to speak in DM. I know that looking at the past or the future can bring a lot of anxiety, try for the moment to concentrate on NOW. If for a minute you feel well, recognize this moment. Concentrate on the sounds, the nature and everything positive now. Keep us updated. You did a good thing to post. Also you have an app called “Talk Space” where you can speak to a psychologist, it might seriously help you.
Take small steps. Every little things you try will make you feel alive. Life is about keep trying and it is hard sometimes. But by reading your message, you have the fire inside. Look at stuff positively is crucial. Keep marching, you can do it!
Sorry to hear this. What does the doctor say?
What does the doc say?
Take the right medication and have hope , honestly hope is a cure and hope can fix anything - don’t give up , you have a lot of life in you, don’t hold back.
Im sorry to hear this! Try to stay positive and definitely agree with the comment to talk to a therapist. Have you tried meditating? If working is painful, can you take a leave of absence and get the help you need? Don’t give up, people care about you and can help.
If you had the patience to type all this up knowing that you would get little to no help here, it means that you still have that attitude of not giving up and you still have hope. Always keep reminding yourself that. Appreciate every small thing you do and aim for bigger things. Start now.