Tech Industry
7h
581
I used to be considered a liberal, now I am leaning conservative. What happend?
Tech Industry
12h
705
What makes so many Southeast Asians have an inferiority complex towards East Asians?
Tech Industry
2h
326
Lyft vs Doordash vs Uber
India
Yesterday
2037
Finally I give up, going back to India.
2024 Presidential Election
11h
1406
Why did Silicon Valley swing hard right?
Summary: - It's exhausting both mentally and physically - It causes weird things to happen in your body - It's a vicious cycle that you need to learn to control and break - See someone and use your company benefits - Optimize for personal growth Context: This post is to vent a little bit as I had one of my worse panic/anxiety attacks. I've dealt with anxiety almost my entire life ever since middle school, but starting as simple phobias such as heights and wind blowing me away. It eventually evolved into social anxiety in college with me resorting to alcohol to get along in social events. Issues: Now in my professional life, with wfh and not seeing many faces, not having a life partner, and living alone, my anxiety has skyrocketed. I also have very little time to myself due to work.I've been going back to the office and often run out of the campus cafes early due to anxiety while I'm in like or eating. I also feel anxious when talking to people, constantly worrying about what they'll think about me when/if I have an attack in front of them. After these attacks, the recovery phase can range from a few minutes to hours, perhaps even a day, for my heart rate and mental state to return to normal. Your body is going through a lot of crap and your brain is processing so many thoughts and emotions; it's overloaded. It's not only exhausting requiring a recovery phase, but it's exhausting to try and get to work on improving it because of the time and effort you put into exercises and digging in to find the root cause. Approach: Anxiety is a normal part of life, but it should not take hold of you and prevent you from going places because it makes you uncomfortable. I've been seeing a therapist with a degree through my Lyra benefit; not one of the in-house therapists with a simple license who are part of the Lyra platform. We've been going through evidence-backed exercises in helping out my anxiety. I find this helpful in allowing me to analyze after the fact and zooming out with exploration of alternative perspectives in each scenario and each mood I have. During attacks I find myself breaking the loop earlier and "snapping out of it" to come back to reality sooner. This is not to say that evidence-backed exercises will help everyone. I'd recommend trying out different approaches as completing the exercises can be draining and add extra workload to your life where it starts to feel like a chore. I personally will be looking for someone I can talk to on the side as a supplement who can help me decompress my thoughts, feelings, and emotions without feeling like I need to commit to or deliver anything per session. I'll be leaving Facebook as I personally feel a lot of stress comes from my coworkers, the culture, my managers, and the expectations on me as an IC7 TL. I may even be taking a downlevel on the way out (most likely towards Google) and will be prioritizing a team that cares for one another with respect and boundaries. It'll be hard to find that team, but I've learned a few signals on how to spot BS that will hopefully aid my team match. I want to focus on other facets of my life and optimize for personal growth by taking care of myself, spending time with family, putting myself out there to seek friend circles, and get back into shape. Links: - If you're unaware of the distinction between panic and anxiety attacks: https://www.healthline.com/health/panic-attack-vs-anxiety-attack#symptoms - Anxiety Exercises: https://www.healthline.com/health/anxiety-exercises - Lyra: https://www.lyrahealth.com/ - Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 800-273-8255 | https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ #burnout #depression #mentalhealth #anxiety #panic
I also left Meta when I found myself right after a promotion stressing about optimizing for the next one...
Thanks for sharing , having anxiety all my life and still continues
Have you tried meds?
I found peace, knowing that nothing will matter once the nukes starts flying
Earth will be better off without humans tbh