I’m a shitty engineer

This is a long post so buckle up folks
Also my current company is not up to date

Just realized I’m a shitty engineer. I pushed myself through school because I thought I would grow to like it. I worked at high profile faang companies, but I sucked there and feel like I underperformed. I hate it, I always feel like I don’t belong.

My profile is impressive on paper but it all feels like a lie. I’ve interviewed and got offers with Palantir, Google, Microsoft, Amazon, Cisco, Facebook, Jane Street, HRT, Cloudflare, Snowflake, etc based on my personality and ability to convey complex technical concepts clearly. I’ve worked at and interned with the companies above. But when the coding round comes along I can’t focus. I can’t code for shit. I struggle with LC and my mind wanders off everytime.It doesn’t help that I suffer from severe ADHD and don’t take any meds. I feel like if I join it’s only a matter of time before I get piped

I want to be a good engineer. But I think it’s time to call it for what it is and try a different career path which I am more likely to perform at a level which I am happy with.

Does anyone have any advice for me? I am really good at communication, cognitive ability, and have deep theoretical understanding of Computer Science concepts and technologies.

yoe 3 years
TC 182k