Losing passion and motivation

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eq123cz

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eq123cz
Apr 18 22 Comments

A couple of years ago I used to take full ownership of my service and drive everything. Used to help out my manager in distributing tasks and learn on my own, stay up late, try to improve the service and monitor it. Onboard the new developers, help out the new engineers too. I worked at a SMB at that time. I wanted to get into big tech and joined Microsoft.

As time as gone by, I am gradually becoming a coaster. I just do not have that drive anymore for some reason. I just joined Microsoft and I am afraid this will eventually show and send wrong signals to my manager and skip. I do not think I have lost passion for software engineering as a whole but it seems to be a combination of burnout, anxiety and intimidation of big company tech world.

What would be path forward? I think I should take vacation but I am new here so bit scared...

TC: 155K

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  • Amazon
    itemahead

    Go to company page Amazon

    itemahead
    Consider switching to a different company that strongly values ownership like you described. I felt bored at Microsoft and find that Amazon or Meta are much better fit for me.
    Apr 18 3
    • Amazon
      itemahead

      Go to company page Amazon

      itemahead
      Could try one of those online mental health services and sign up for a one-time session. If you’re going through some sort of burnout then blind won’t be a big help. If it’s more of a boreout then switching companies can help.

      Btw Microsoft is all about WLB and people celebrating 30 year service awards. There shouldn’t be any stigma to you taking vacation days.
      Apr 18
    • New
      eq123cz

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      eq123cz
      OP
      I will ask MSFT blinders
      Apr 18
  • It's called growing up. Over time we value life more than writing another useless service that won't be used by anyone
    Apr 18 3
    • I haven’t heard of a team where taking vacation is frowned upon (might exist, but that’s not norm). Especially with the way vacations expire, you’ll sometimes see managers reminding people to take time off especially after a burst of extra work. Get what you need to do done, plan out your vacation in advance, shouldn’t be a problem.
      Apr 19
    • And just a note, my team wlb suck bad, even then I still use my 25 days
      Apr 19
  • Amazon
    vSjq66

    Go to company page Amazon

    vSjq66
    Move into managerial role
    Apr 18 1
    • New
      eq123cz

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      eq123cz
      OP
      LMAO
      Apr 18
  • 155k for SWE? Go somewhere you're valued and have your values aligned.
    Apr 18 1
    • New
      eq123cz

      New

      eq123cz
      OP
      I am not in Redmond.
      Apr 18
  • Amazon
    chutti

    Go to company page Amazon

    chutti
    Please ask MSFT blinders
    Apr 18 1
    • New
      eq123cz

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      eq123cz
      OP
      I have not created MSFT account yet. WIll do and. Hopefully public forum responds
      Apr 18