Career of a less-than-mediocre and unmotivated software engineer

Amazon OPjI42
Mar 9 16 Comments

I'm a less than mediocre engineer in Amazon with TC ~150000 with 8 years experience.

I never feel talented or strongly interested in software engineering, or engineering in general. I just memorized the questions, cracked the interviews and did the minimum to complete the tasks. I didn't develop interests diving deeper into technical knowledge. I'm not interested in taking more ownership or responsibility. When I have spare time, I usually find more fun or urgent things to do than enhancing my technical skills. I can't understand why my colleagues are so passionate about technical problems.

I once doubted about my IQ and if I have the science/math inclination at all. I spent dollars on testing my IQ and mental health, and some medicine enhancing my cognition ability. None seems to really help. I tried to switch companies and teams but the excitement only lasted for about half year then it is replaced by boredom.

I stayed in software engineer position because I'm stuck with green card process. However, I don't know what else to do once I get a green card. Am I really the material for software engineer? Or is corporate life/technology sector even making sense at all?

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  • Amazon SUOl88
    You are in good numbers in most companies. Don't feel exclusive here.
    Mar 9 0
  • Magic Leap Leaper17
    What do you find yourself doing or reading every day? Track it for 30 days. Then DM.
    Mar 9 0
  • Microsoft
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    So youโ€™re not interested in software engineering... big deal. I used to be super passionate about programming, but then I found a new interest and I donโ€™t care for software engineering at all anymore. I see it as super boring and lame.

    Forcing yourself to like something, to be passionate about something, is completely counterproductive. If getting passionate about programming is your goal, then you have to first figure out what it is that youโ€™re passionate about already (maybe you like to stack cups? Or play competitive beer pong?) and transfer your passion to programming through the process of self-discovery. It is fun!

    If you choose not to cultivate passion for software development, that is OK too ๐Ÿ˜‰. Maybe it is time for you to switch the nature of your work, like becoming a PM.
    Mar 9 8
    • Microsoft
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      Quit my job 2 years ago and have been doing it full time. No particular goal at the moment, I simply do what my intuition is telling me I must do ๐Ÿ˜‰
      Mar 9
    • How is the money coming ? Got some funding ?
      Mar 9
    • Microsoft
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      Troll living under the I-5 overpass
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      Personal savings.
      Mar 9
    • Microsoft
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      You a citizen? Also your Id says Msft. Did you switch?
      Mar 9
    • Microsoft
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      Troll living under the I-5 overpass
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      Green card. Currently unemployed.
      Mar 9
  • Facebook a73Ajd
    Unlock yourself. Nothing is worth living a life of boredom.

    Are you from an old world culture that values careers and titles more than individuality. Forget that and settle for less prestigious but has more work that interest you. For example you can become a manager if you find mentorship rewarding. Quit and join a small relaxed company as a manager of a small team. You just provide guidance and direction. No coding on a daily basis.
    Mar 9 0
  • Salesforce citizens
    Big head ??
    Mar 9 0
  • Expedia patronis
    "Medicine enhancing my cognition"...unless that means coffee, please stop.
    Mar 9 0
  • Google / Eng yogi bear
    given what you described, you are definitely not material for software engineer. if you are close to your GC, just beat with it a little longer; if you still have a decade to wait, fuck it and find something you love to do.
    Mar 9 0
  • LinkedIn tendies
    What was your iq score?
    Mar 9 0

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