Tried marijuana for the first time - need your thoughts
I have been struggling with depression for several years now. On medication but it only helps me stay functional, nothing more. I struggle with staying motivated to do basic chores, getting out of bed, socializing - you get the drift. I do not smoke or drink alcohol.
A friend suggested I try marijuana a couple of years ago, but I declined; should I become addicted, there is one more crisis to manage.
Couple of days ago another friend made the same suggestion, only this time I caved in and said yes.
I had a powerful experience! I only took a single puff, and the rest was second hand smoke. Within minutes, and over the next couple of hours, I completed chores that had been on my list for months.
I will be letting my psychiatrist know in our next meeting and asking for their thoughts. I also want to hear from others about my concerns and questions.
a. I am very worried about getting addicted or going to work stoned. I can not afford my life to get any more complicated.
b. I am not accustomed to smoking, I ended up coughing quite a bit. I read there are oils (a drop of two under the tongue), gummies, topical creams too. I don’t want to eat edibles - I have a tendency to eat out of boredom and the edibles would likely not last more than a few hours. Are there marijuana pills?
c. I read the industry is not regulated and quality varies. Are there brands that can be tested?
d. Are there doctors who can advice on dosage. My psychiatrist is with Kaiser and I am not sure she can help with prescription.
e. If marijuana purchases can be linked to my ID, is there a chance my immigration prospects will be impacted?
f. Given the burst of productivity I experienced, I am wondering if my lack of motivation can be cured by say Adderal, rather than marijuana. Pros: can be prescribed and it’s use monitored by my doctor.
Marijuana offers me hope. It could be a game changer. I just want to be able to do normal things again - being able to cook breakfast when someone is visiting, for example. However I want to think through this before using again.
Thank you for your time!