Were you managed out of one company but succeeded greatly at another?
In my previous job my manager mentioned in my 1:1s with him that my pay is greater than his. I didn’t take much notice of it. When I stared working with him I felt that he had a small racial bias against me. I worked hard and kept a cool head hoping that I will be able to establish trust and faith. He tried many times to blame things on me but I always worked hard and got things done. When things didn’t work I worked to make them work.
I should have left but I was waiting for my I140. Immigrants are not allowed to have self respect.
Our company merged with another. My manager asked me to mentor a junior team from the other company. I did it. Everything was not bad and I got good performance bonus and rating.
As soon as the handover to the junior team was done My manager picked up a small issue and made a big time spectacle of it and asked me to resign in front of everyone.The CTO supported him because the company had to meet their head count cut numbers.
I leetcoded hard and got a job at Amazon. Salary is OK not spectacular but way better than what I was making. So everything is fine now.
But every now and then I then I get very negative thoughts. I feel that no matter where I go I will always fail. Something or the other will always go wrong and when it does everyone will take advantage of it.
Somehow I feel that people decide in first 5 minutes of meeting you on whether they will let you succeed or fail. A voice keeps telling me that everyone wants me to fail. For some it’s because I earn more than them for others there are different more complicated reasons.
Is anyone here who got managed out of one role and went on to be a success in another? How did you deal with negative voices and emotions about yourself.
I’m an OK technically not the best not the worst. Always gets thing done but sometimes it takes 1 or 2 tries. I’m good at communication and relationships but not spectacular. I’ve always been very popular with junior team members and peers but struggle in managing up for some reason.