What have I changed to?
I recently discovered how much darkness has grown inside me. To give some context, I grew up in a poor socioeconomic background. I have always been very honest, caring and nice hearted. I have donated blood as a teen, worked for so many non-profit causes over decades helping hundreds of people and so on. In the recent years, I feel I have changed so much. I didn't realize that until this incident yesterday where I was walking with my wife in downtown and a old homeless man fainted(had a heart attack) in the street. I didn't give a shit. Fortunately my wife insisted I call 911 and I eventually did which saved his life. I don't know how I became like this. I don't want to be this monster anymore. What should I do to go back to my old self? I feel money and status has changed me.
I have the same feeling about myself. I wasn’t like this when I was a kid. I don’t know if it is just the result of getting older or it is the way capitalist society has changed me over time.
Go back to volunteering? Connecting with normal people and their problems again. Remind yourself how luck plays a major role in every success and how there are many more deserving people who could not succeed.
This. Volunteering might help. I teach at a high school with majority ( all of them ) Black students in the Bronx in NYC. Man the families they belong to and the shit they go through tears me up every time I step into their lives. Keeps me grounded. I’m a person of color so that helps kids approach me easily.
Thank you for giving back to the community!! You are doing an amazing work
This app is the worst of it
If you're a such a shitty person that can't even call a 911 then you're an asshole. But don't try guilting others to feel bad because they make more money after years of working like dogs
Your resolution is more than enough, many people don't even do that. Most of then don't question themselves, their actions and just defend their bad actions. You are far better as you questioned your action. Just do some social work, donate money to poor people.
Thank you. Will do
When and if you decide to donate, donate it directly to me. I-am struggling last 15 years!
Why would money change you to a person who doesn't give a shit about a man having a heart attack next to you? It is a sorry excuse for your apathy. Bill Gates is worth over $100 billion and how he spends time doing on charities in Africa. https://www.google.com/search?q=bill+gates+africa&tbm=isch When you make excuses, you start to believe you can't control it because of your excuse. The volunteering suggestions above are a good start to connect with people and understand their circumstances.
First I thought he was on drugs.
That is understandable if you did not recognize what was happening. I was going by the sentence where you said "I did not give a shit". If you thought it was only side effects of drug use, then it sounds like you simply didn't know better.
Leetcode
Lack of morals i.e. religion
TC?
Not helping
You said money changed you. Let us know how much money we talking.