One week without cocaine, thanks to Blind

A little over a week ago I wrote a post about my struggles with cocaine. https://us.teamblind.com/s/NB4W0tgF With the support and suggestions I received I finally summoned the strength to make a stab at it. The last time I used cocaine was Saturday, July 1st. Cocaine down the toilet (goodbye to about $160 of premo shit), dealer's info erased from my phone (made sure to clean out Venmo and Zelle this time), and a serious conversation with my wife asking for her support (she is being very supportive.) It was good timing as I had a 4 day weekend due to the 4th of July. Whoo boy did I need the extra days to adjust... After about 3 months of using about a gram a day every single day quitting hit me like a train. A sleepy train. So Sunday, Monday, and (especially) Tuesday I basically just slept. I would get up twice a day to eat and walk the dog, but as soon as I was done it was back to bed. The fatigue I felt was kind of scary to be honest. It felt like "shit, I can either relapse and feel normal or feel tired _forever_"... But luckily by Wednesday I was able to.. kind of.. do my job. It's days like this last Wednesday that make me infinitely thankful that I am blessed to work remotely. Thursday was a little better still and then finally Friday I felt like I actually got an honest productive day's work done. I hope that I might be through the worst of it. So really, THANK YOU to the Blind community. The unexpected huge number of responses I received, some helpful, some hurtful, and many stark reality checks, were the final straws that pushed me to start this change. Here's hoping I'll make it to two weeks. 🤞 #mentalhealth #addiction

Addicted to cocaine

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