You might not be interested in my story but still i would like to write my heart out today. I come from a poor family in india. Father had a job ( a tough one though ) but his income was only enough for us to survive and having two times meal. my family never had any kind of savings for big financial goals (eg: Daughters/Sons marriage , building house etc ). I was only in 9th standard when my elder sister got married off and i remeber we could manage that wedding only with the help of relatives. my family got into debt because of this. although it was 2-3 lacs only but it was a very big amount for us back then and we were not seeing any way to pay it back. fast forward 2 years. I knew my family wouldn't afford the fee of engg but still just to try my luck I appeared for jee mains without attending any coaching ( obviously could not afford ) managed to clear it with good ranks and got into one of prestigious college of india. Relatives helped with my first semester fee but arranging fee for every subsequent semesters was a nightmare for us but one miracle happened and i got to know about one of the scholarships for meritorious students but in order to continue availing this scholarship, I should maintain my good academic record throughout the engg. somehow i managed to complete engg with good grades and even topped in few semesters :) fast forward to campus placement time: A miracle happened, i was preparing for one of the company's interview and whatever lecture i was watching in the youtube, the interviewer asked the questions around that only and i explained them thoroughly without blinking an eyelid. interviewer got really impressed and offered the job with one of the highest ctc. I wouldn't be doing justice to my feeling if i try to explain it in the words. you can call it our first true happiness in so many years.... Fast forward to Today: Its been 4 years i've been working in the tech industry. i paid off all my family debt, married off my other sister, arranged money for my brothers wedding, built a house whose net worth is around 60 lacs now ( my father also helped here with his retirement corpus ) , setup up all the things in the house ( earlier we didn't even have fridge, tv , washing machine etc) My family has always been my first priority and after achieving almost all the goals i feel like i'm lost now. i never had many friends (only a few) during my engg time because i could not afford failure. one failure and my whole life will get ruined. But now, i really miss not having built good friendship in that time. i even had a gf during my first job everything was great for first year but after that pandemic came and wfh started. Since i was living at home so i got so involved in family commitments that i never had enough time for her and as expected we broke up. there were other issues as well. her family even she was ashamed of my not so wealthy family background. I know many of you will suggest that now its time to invest in yourself and do justice to yourself but how should i ? when i dont have anyone left in my life ? no motivation left in my life ? i kept losing all the relationships over the years. Sorry for poor writing. this is the first time i'm writing such a thing. Blind tax: TC: 40LPA YOE: 4
You did what was priority at that point in time. If you made friends you wouldn't be in today's position probably. Don't crib about past an do whatever you missed before now.
Many of us have the same story. I do.
Buy a nice car bro š
Be proud of how far you have come, and the impact you have had on your family for generations to come. It sounds like you were goal oriented so far and the goals revolves around your family. Now create similar goals for yourself, whether thatās deeper friendships or getting a partner. Join clubs, local meetups, etc and Iām sure you will start getting closer to your goals.
There's no way forward until you face your pain. Cars, apartments, or any other materials pleasures are just distractions. Go to a vipassana meditation or find a good therapist. The first option is probably easier and more socially acceptable in India. Consider relocating to a different country. Consider taking a long vacation.
Itna sab likh diya sirf ch*t k gam mei? Visit GB road u will feel better.
afraid of STD
This is bullshit. I have been a regular visitor of GB road fuc*ed around 200 girls in last 2 yrs. Use proper condoms, avoid licking puss*es wash your self after sex, u will be fine.