Freedom to express and Depression

I feel like I can't talk to anyone.. I can't talk to people at workplace because god knows who will misunderstand what.. Can't talk to my wife because she is always so busy at work... Can't talk to my mom because she would make me feel guilty and call me out for being weak and how she had done so much for me.. Cant' talk to therapist because I don't have good insurance and don't make enough money to afford one.. Me losing job and not being able to find something good doesn't help.. I feel depressed and not sure if anything even matters..The only reason I want to keep living is to take care of my toddler.. #depression #mentalhealth #layoffs