Edit: Thank you all for the support and suggestions. It will take time but I hope to be able improve my well being. I'm single at 30. I'm alone on a Friday evening. I hate my job, I keep failing all the interviews at the phone screen level. I hate my managers, the backstabber coworkers and the low scope work they keep giving me. The few good people out there accomodate me on one of the inconvenient rainy day weekday evenings after many attempts out of pity. I've hit Instagram fatigue out of overusing it. Everyone is nice to you on the face, but when you really need someone to talk to, there is no one around. Everyone I send texts on a Friday evening go unanswered until Saturday afternoon. No one even looks at my texts. No coworkers respond to my "have a good weekend" messages on Slack, because I'm not their priority. Everyone has a partner or best friends out there, everyone is having fun. I'm in no one's Friday night plans. I'm no one's first priority. I'm sad, I'm depressed and I've ran out of ways I can keep myself happy by myself. My health is deteriorating due to the sadness, overeating and stress. My apartment is a mess. The only reason I'm still alive is for my family (parents, siblings), else there is no reason for me to exist anymore. The world is cruel, and it doesn't value honesty and kindness anymore, in fact takes advantage of it. TC underpaid 190k 7yoe
Donāt worry. Impermanence is the rule of life. Nothing is permanent.
Oh well! You are in my Friday plan now! DM me! And this is not out of pity! Im also by myself all the time. Same boat š¤£š¤£ You will be alright!
Shallow AF
I totally understand your situation but without understanding your nature as a person I canāt really help you. But I would suggest loving yourself and not be worried about being other peopleās priority. Go out and try to mix with people in bars, meetups any activities you are excited about. Remember not to have any expectations. I learned that not giving a f on most things kept me happy, not thinking about what others think about me or where I fall in their priority. Keep trying to find your special someone while being open to getting hurt. PS: feel free to DM me if you want someone to talk to
Take Care! It must be hard, but this time will pass and youāll come through. Keep yourself engaged and try to attend meetups or workshops. Itās a good place to meet many people with shared interests. And many of them take place regularly on weekends.
Sorry mate. Life sucks sometimes. You gotta make the most of it and find happiness in yourself. Sounds like you need therapy. Good luck.
Get a dog. They make you feel special.
The best idea! They are the best
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DM me
I donāt think OP wants to send a package
You are your own first priority. You should be happy about that. Coming from someone whoās first priority is kids and wife, I would kill to have myself be my first priority again. You can go travel, eat whatever you want and do whatever you want any time you want, and focus on your own happiness and wellbeing. And You have the tc to support that.Itās a blessing really.
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Well this comment was definitely helpful for OP. Maybe heāll delete blind as a first step to a meaningful life
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