TLDR/summary version at bottom.
I guess I'm no good at behavioral interviews? I'm a first year masters student in Information systems. I have 1 summer left for an internship and have been getting rejections almost weekly for the past month from Goldman Sachs, Exxon mobile most notably.
I have an okay resume that with enough persistence on the recruiters at my school, I can get an interview. (Except for some reason huge companies like Microsoft, apple, Amazon, adobe, etc. which bums me out. Maybe I don't have a foot in the door?).
I do my best to study about the position, and express that I have a passion in technology, but fail at interviews I guess.
I took my first programming class 2.5 years ago and switched from finance into IS and now in first year masters for IS. I've been busting my balls to get into the program because I wanted it so bad. But leaves me short to the 4 year coding prodigy kids (I'm 26 and interviewing for internships while the other candidates are 19 or 20 is... humbling).
Tons of rejection this last month for positions like software engineer internships. I'm nervous all the 'good' internships are filled for next summer already and that if I don't get a good one, I'm pretty much set for mediocrity the rest of my life. It's pretty disheartening, especially considering I'll be getting married soon. Makes me feel like a failure.
Any help, guidance, suggestions, referrals, questions, even motivational stuff, would be greatly appreciated, because, I'll tell you what, I'm struggling.
Thanks in advance
I still have an engrained "I will fuck this up" mentality when I interview because I have been rejected so many times. At the same time, I'm much more relaxed and prepared for that fact, so I now tend to be very calm and collected during interviews and end up doing surprisingly well.
Don't worry. Just keep going at it. You'll be fine. The only wrong choice here is giving up.