TLDR by @Think: "Develop I don't give a F*ck attitude and don't worry too much about the things which are beyond your control" ——— The biggest stressor in my life was being on H1B Yes you heard it right! Like most of the immigrants on Blind I used to be super stressed about the 60 day period Just the idea of layoffs would make me nervous and stop me from functioning. Don’t even get me started about my Impostor Syndrome and how I felt I was not performing at my best Id get panic attacks, insomnia and would wake up multiple times a night by the immense pain to keep my job. I became a Zombie and I hated being a zombie. I hated being someone with flesh and bones, waking up everyday and not feeling like it. My mental health deteriorated, with not friends around and WFH every single day. I felt like escaping the rat race, I felt like a million needles poking through my skin and my face I was raised in a family where seeking therapy is frowned upon, but I was open to therapy. I was scared of being attached to therapy and I didn’t want to be in that position and keep counting on it. After all life shouldn’t be that complicated, should it be? So what did I do to get this awakening? What did I eat, did I become a yogi with no attachments? Did I hit the gym? Nope. I literally did nothing! Atleast proactively. For the past 3 months I took one day at a time without worrying about the consequences, without worrying what bad could happen, if I get laid off will I fall behind compared to my peers? I focused on Living. I felt like doing something I did, I felt like buying something I bought, I felt like adopting a cat I did, I felt like setting up work boundaries and expectations I did, I felt like changing my team I did, I felt like going to NY just to surprise a friend I did & then I realized how much in control can you be if you really want things to be You don’t have to have answers to all the questions. No one knows anything and no one knows everything, we all have our own pieces of puzzle to work with so you do your part And someday when you get your pieces of puzzle taken away don’t worry there’s always gonna be a new fancy puzzle set waiting for you to come fix- maybe it takes over 60 days for you to find it, maybe you go back home and hit refresh, but it doesn’t matter as long as you come back stronger To end my small introspection story here’s what my Dad loves to say “Son, I want you to succeed and I want you to lead a fulfilling life but not at the cost of being scared” Aren’t we all really fine engineers / pms? There’s enough toxicity out there let’s not be toxic & if someone is being toxic to you show them what you made up off. PERIOD. P.S. I don’t condemn therapy and I don’t state any of my beliefs would work for you. Maybe we are not even in the same situation. All I want to say is HIT Refresh #misc
TLDR: OP took it one day at a time and chose to stop worrying
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As someone who's been feeling like a zombie doomscrolling bing blind lately, I appreciate your post OP. Much love ❤️!
Snap out *cat paw 👋 We got this!
Excellent post op 👏
Agree with this approach. I would summarize your philosophy with 1 liner. "Develop I don't give a F*ck attitude and don't worry too much about the things which are beyond your control" Once you do this successfully, you will start enjoying life ....
I liked the summary. Adding it to TLDR