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A few months ago I was feeling quite depressed and went on a medical leave for a month. After coming back, my manager gave me really simple and disjointed tasks. I am a Sr Eng and even the Jr Eng were leading small projects at this point. How did I get here? Long story. There was a series of inconvenient events this year. The month after I came back from leave there was a month of offsites and on calls. So I didn’t get to do anything related to my job. I was onboarding for 6 months last year, but was also going through a depression. Still I got a 3 (good) rating in Jan. My coworkers said I was doing great. Dropbox went through a reorg and months later a RIF earlier this year. Which further muddied things. Not only did it make it hard to take on Sr level work after my onboarding. But now there was a lot more pressure to lay off low performers in general. Our culture changed very significantly. My manager is hesitating to give me more complicated work, because I hadn’t built much trust (or context) this year. I get what he’s coming from, and probably would do the same in his shoes. But that creates a catch 22 for me. I have a complex set of conditions, not just unipolar depression, but Bipolar, ADHD, OCD. I get extremely bored and discouraged with simple, disjointed tasks. I feel no stimulation or purpose at work. So I go off and turn 1-2 point tasks into 2 weeks ordeals, trying to create some meaning, that nobody asked me to create. Not because I want to, but because it’s my natural response. And yes I’ve tried every strategy I could think of to just do my work. A week ago my manager told me that he was under pressure from his manager to put me on a PIP, first unofficially for a month and then officially. Problem is, next month there is a hackathon, on call, and a lack of a clearly defined project for me to work on. Mainly it still doesn’t address the problem. I can’t really see myself succeeding, let alone happy at this job if I am given Jr level work. I will only stress myself out and under perform. Ironically, the medical leave didn’t do much for me. Occasionally I get burnt out, where a leave helps. That wasn’t the case here. I was under-stimulated. And coming back, I was stimulated even less. Now, with this 1-2 month window, I don’t think it’s possible to assign me work that would stimulate me enough, let alone show sufficient results to keep my job. I talked to HR, we discussed that after a medical leave I should be given work that fits my role (Sr Eng). But it kind of seems like a lost cause. Much like breaking up, once someone is marked for termination they’ll just keep looking for reasons to do so. Has anyone gone through this process? Should I bother trying to make this work or negotiate a separation?
Your company isn’t your caretaker and they don’t have a responsibility to look after you in hard times. It sounds like you should focus on developing your life outside of work. You’re never going to find what you’re looking for in a corporate environment
Are you under Core? Which team? I heard some ppl in Core had been put on PIP since June.
Get medical help for your mental health and go from there. Good luck !
Companies only need to make a reasonable accommodation. Getting paid to miss deadlines isn’t reasonable. Not all work will be stimulating, that sounds like an excuse to justify poor performance.
I know right? You're paid to do a job.