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First of all, I know I probably need professional help. Secondly, I like my job and I think I'm pretty good at it too. I just got promoted in January and should be feeling good about life. Instead, I'm waking up every morning knee deep in anxiety, constantly refreshing Blind and Layoffs trying to find any scrap of hope, or non-hope, that my job is secure. But in my heart, I know it's probably not. I don't have much savings. I know, I'm stupid and should have 3 months or 6 months saved up but I don't. I've nursed some credit card debt the past year and haven't been able to put enough away. If I had a savings, none of this would be an issue. I'd happily take my layoff and whatever severance they give and work hard to find another job. But if I lose this job, I won't have that luxury. I don't even know how much severance Nordstrom gives. People say grind Leetcode... I've been doing that. I still suck at those kinds of questions. And it doesn't even seem to matter because when I send applications out, I'm not getting any responses... So I can't even fail their technical interviews. If I lost my job, at my current hit-rate, I'd be screwed. People online make layoffs sound easy, and make finding another job seem inevitable. But I am losing hope. My anxiety that already existed is starting to turn into depression. It's taking every ounce of effort to not let this anxiety affect my daily work, knowing that my daily work performance is all I have. Meanwhile, the actual disease that's causing a pandemic is the last thing on my mind. If you told me I could get infected and be in debilitating pain for two weeks but world would go back to normal, I'd take that without question. Is that messed up? Probably. And I can't get away from it. Everything I watch, everything I read, it's all about COVID-19. People saying how it's only going to get worse, summer won't kill it, it will be here all year. I won't survive like this for a year. I know people have it worse than me. People make less than I do and have already lost their jobs. I feel terrible for them and have no idea how they're making it through this. That doesn't help me though. My thoughts every morning are getting worse and I'm starting to question whether any of this is worth it.
You're overreacting to this. Just do your job and don't think about it.
Take a deep breath and stop reading the damn posts on here. I worked for Nordstrom for a long time including during the last recession. They are savvy with their money and will do what they can to keep the business a float. If anything they would probably close stores before cutting people from corporate as tech is their money maker.
Are you on H1B? If not, just chill.
Why chill if not on h1b?
Please seek professional help. There are many free or sliding scale mental health providers providing things like telehealth right now.
Tl;dr
Remember that humans have faced bigger challenges with lesser resources and have won so far. We will win this battle too. Eventually things will go back to normal. Like the saying, every place is in a walking distance if you have time. As for your financial situation see what needs to be done to improve it.Eg. If you want to save 30% of your salary, you will have to assume you earn 30% less and then manage your expenses accordingly.
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A bunch of nordstrom tech was just furloughed, so hopefully you survived that OP
Dude relax.
I do get that this is stupid to have anxiety about which is making me feel more pathetic but I honestly don't know how to stop it. I really do wish I could relax.