my partner of double digit years has casually talked about wanting to open our relationship over the last 3-4 years. it was never something presented in a serious way, so i never seriously considered it. said partner has now stepped outside of our relationship (read cheated), and openly confessed while also saying they’d really like to continue seeing the new person and not lose me or the relationship we’ve built.
i’m crushed, hurt, angry, confused, and very sad, but not really shocked because of the casual mentions in the past. i’m also very early in the processing of all of this, so i’m sure my emotions will continue to change.
i recognize that our communication sucks. i recognize that therapy could and maybe should be a next step to just deal with where we are now. i do love him, and also see how some of my unmet needs could be fulfilled in an open scenario.
how hard are open relationships to maintain?
in my case - can one even be started with what has already occurred?
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we are having open/ honest conversations - shit got really real over the weekend. i even showed him all of your great responses - he had nothing to say other than to balk at the responses that didn’t support his idea of how this should all play out (the he wins-he wins scenario). that was snarky - but i’m still pretty raw from all of this.
we’ve jointly agreed to go to therapy to talk through everything with a witness, and to set up a separation. then he goes on his walk-about and finds himself, and i figure out wtf i want. this is the first time in my life that i will be single, at a very successful point in a high paying career, and can do whatever “I” want, live wherever i want and choose to be with or not be with whomever i want.
so as of right now, we separate and reevaluate in six months or so. or we separate and call it quits - and maybe i explore being open on my own, or not.
This time may be sad for you, but I think you’ll come out of it healthier, happier, and stronger than how you came in. Having fewer responsibilities to others and more time/energy for yourself will help you heal.
The fact that he balked at anything that didn’t support his own view will likely mean you will split up. If he won’t hear from others, he may not listen to a therapist either. If that happens, I’d be grateful that you didn’t waste more of your precious years with him.
Good luck and stay strong.
Your life will get better and the best revenge is living well!
In six months you’re going to think “WTF did I ever put up with this shit?”
Also there is no need for revenge, just live to be the best version of yourself
Source: I was unfaithful to my wife and made all of the excuses one could think of. It was a chicken shit thing to do that stemmed from problems I’ve had since childhood. My wife’s grace and mercy in the face of it has been incredible to behold. I’m truly indebted to the professionals in my life and my wife for being a much better man today.
You have kids? That'll suck, but still divorce him now.
The harder part is when you find someone that you start prioritizing above your main partner (this will eventually happen).
Now, the most important part here is communication and trust. Your man has already crushed your trust for him. This is not the correct way to enter an open relationship.
I’m really sorry to hear that this happened to you, rebuilding trust is extremely hard and if your man doesn’t do everything to rebuild it with you, it will fall over and over again.
Only soln is I see is consider a new partner and while the excitement still exists in that relation, get married.
That means the temptations have to cross a certain thresholds. There is none otherwise.
And yes, I think it’s possible for monogamous relationships to survive infidelity, but like any break down in communication or trust, it requires work to actively repair that trust. “I messed up and am remorseful for violating your trust, and would appreciate the chance to repair that trust” is very different from “I messed up, but it’s not that big a deal, why can’t you just forgive and forget?”
One thing to consider if you do decide to go down this route is you get to set boundaries and 100% should set prior infidelities off-limits due to the additional emotional baggage / monument to communication failure.
If he balks at this constraint, DTMFA.
In general open relationships require more trust and more communication than closed ones IME. You will have a natural inclination to protect your partner from hurt and that will result in more hurt when you aren't open an honest about things. When we first started we were 'open' but only to sex. That was a recipe for disaster you can't decide when you do or don't pick up feelings. My wife got feelings for someone and tried to ignore them and keep them from me and we didn't communicate effectively it was bad. We since have learned how to communicate and that some things just don't work. Similarly 'veto rights' reek of controlling your partner, you don't control them you control yourself and trust that they care about you and will do right by you. A big part of what has made being poly work for us is wanting to see the other person happy. When one of us has a good other date we know how that feels are are happy for each other.
Now onto your situation, it sounds like there is a lack of trust, a lack of communication. It might be that your boyfriend will be better in an open situation, but it doesn't sound like your relationship is healthy enough for it St the moment. Opening up a relationship is HARD. My wife and I were together for 8 years, never fought always just fully trusted each other and communicated well, went to couples therapy before we got married and the only thing they wanted to work on was my ability to open up emotionally ( whole other story), and it was still pretty hard. Granted we hadn't read the books and such I mentioned and doing so helped us get on the right track. Learning how to manage jealousy, have some compersion for each other, how to balance time it's all hard at first.
Anyways tldr: if you want to try being open read the books I mentioned, and go to couples therapy to strengthen your own relationship first. Fix what you have going on and then open, don't open to try and fix it all. That's like having kids to save a marriage. Sure maybe kids are s great choice for you, but it's not going to fix things it will just add more stress at first.
He wants his cake and to eat it too.
You have no self respect if you agree.
Fwiw my wife and I both obviously have each other, one more serious other relationship and one that is more 'casual'. It's a lot of work to maintain sometimes consider if it's worth it, but 🤷. I've always viewed it kinda like friendships, you can multiple of them and maintain one 'best'. But there is a limit to how many you can really maintain.
That said we don't currently have not sure we currently planning on kids, but I know people who do and have lived like this for 10 years.
Once both partners agree on allowing them to sleep with other folks then it's pretty much game over for the guy unless he looks like Josh Duhamel. It's infinitely easier for women to get casual sex from apps than men. Men in open relationships get super jealous when they see that their partner has slept with 10 times the number of people they have since the relationship went open.
In most cases it's a recipe for disaster, in the extremely few number of cases where there is a lot of trust , it works out.
i have also channeled a lot of that sadness into creative projects that are coming at me faster than i can manage. one of them being a way for people who have been on the receiving end of infidelity to share their stories anonymously. and for those who have made it through to provide words of wisdom.
you were all a huge inspiration for this project. your support helped me navigate this very early on and i want to thank you for that. I have only had a few people submit stories, but the are letting me know how grateful they are that the platform exists.
i don’t know protocol here so i’ll only say that the sites name is not betrayed dot com - you would need to drop the first vowel, and that would be it.
your stories are welcome there - you may help a lot more people with your amazing insight and honesty.
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Hang in there, take care of yourself, and don’t forget that the future looks brighter!
sex life is good. we have 🚀 and 🎆 every once in a while, but consistently i’d say it’s good. he says he would like it more often, but periodically rejects advances. i could definitely use more satisfaction but i’ve become complacent and i know that’s on me.
we’re human. we work hard. we play hard. we aren’t gold medal sex achievers, but we’re also not dragging at the end of the line.
i think “open” for him is adventure not quantity (i think he would agree but maybe not). adventure is something i’ve done in my past - and would possibly consider again under the right circumstances.
Human beings are inherently weak and flawed; if your partner wants something new, you need to determine if you can "value" your partner afterward.
If you think you'll see them as deficient or flawed in some way, the pack your bags; if you think you will still love them, then strap up for the ride.
All this will be irrelevant in your 60s when comfort and company are all you need.
The only people I know who managed to have open relationships work had stellar communication and actively fought against jealousy. A communication breakdown led to both your needs and his needs not being met.
I’d try to fix what is between the two of you before you introduce a third or fourth person to your relationship. Just as having kids never makes a bad relationship better, the same is likely true of adding more people to the mix.
I mean in general if you are using dating apps they tend to favor women in terms of # of opportunities.
There is nothing that should keep a strong independent woman with a man that makes her feel the way he has made you feel
5 months later, I've had my fun and I think it's time to give it up. It did lead to a lot of jealous on her end, and I feel bad juggling several relationships.
I'd say it changed things for the worst. We started having fights about things we never worried about, and made me question my love for her. Granted I've had 3-4 serious partners in my life and she has had none. So I think she wanted some perspective on things.
Ask me again in 3 months if we are still together
Under the pressure of my ex who wanted me to go open (due to his fantasies) I went, but didn’t like it. I stopped. I’m sorry that my relationship ended up not working out (for more than just this reason alone). But I don’t regret for one bit that I insisted on my stand.