Joined out of college, have learned close to nothing and my coding skills have regressed to that of a college freshman's. No promos, no interesting work, just constantly hating my life. Watched dozens of my colleagues leave and kicking myself for not doing so sooner but in my head I always thought, maybe I need a bit more experience before I hop ships. Problem is now I don't even have the confidence to apply to mid level roles elsewhere. I feel so inadequate because I've been doing meaningless BS work for years while my friends are making more and getting promoted elsewhere, doing impactful work. I dread getting out if bed every morning and my self esteem has never been lower. I don't even mind working long hours or being stressed by work, in fact I'd rather feel that way if the work was actually meaningful or interesting. Instead I just feel like I'm wasting my life doing meaningless things and being taken advantage of. I've always been someone who prioritizes living life to the fullest and making new opportunities and experiences for myself and now I find myself leaving my room and talking to my friends less and less. My health has deteriorated, my sleep schedule and eating schedule are terrible, and I've even started neglecting brushing my teeth as much since my sleep schedule is so messed up. I've always been proud of who I was and now I stare at myself in the mirror in shame. I look like a hollow shell of who I once was. Planning on quitting by the end of the year and seeing a psychiatrist. Might take some FMLA just so I can chill for a bit, actually need it. so thanks Amazon :)
YOE ? Role?
SWE, just turned 26, you do the math.
I did the math and it does not look bad for you at all. Initial 3-4 yrs are always like that. Good that you are on top of it. People have switched careers after 10-12 years to SWE and have excelled. So just hang in and ask for impactful project or try to find a problem from another team and solve it
You sound lazy. Take ownership and improve your coding skill. Learn and be curious by diving deep and use internal resources to improve.
You sir seem like those famous Amazon bullshitters who do nothing but talk and consider it their birth right to give feedback on everything and everyone coz you have absolutely no other core competency. OP is exhausted not lazy you dumbass.
Seen plenty of complainers like OP that did it to themselves. Probably lazy.
TC or gtfo
You should mind overload of work.. why don't you
It’s never too late to start from scratch. Start coding practice and you should be fine
Reimplement the most popular RPC framework used at Amazon in a new language. That’ll give you something to do and make you think about how most services work
You alone are responsible for your personal and professional growth. Stop crying like a baby.
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you're right that in responsible for myself but i'll still cry ab it
It's important to find happiness within yourself, without becoming delusional like my ex. After college, she joined Amazon while I went to a startup. Despite the distance, I was content. However, once she moved to Bangalore, her attitude changed. She displayed arrogance, making passive-aggressive jokes to showcase her success. She also started dating a colleague, labeling me as toxic. She ended our two-year relationship and jumped into a new one within days. Despite both her and her boyfriend now being unemployed, their pride remains. Let's strive to be genuinely content and work on self-improvement.
Wtf does your personal grudge have to do with OP’s self-loathing 😂😂
Had to put it somewhere 😂😂😂
Bye now
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Why didn’t you do an internal transfer after you made the realization you weren’t learning anything?
I was offered on two separate occasions by managers from other teams that I did away team work in to join their teams. Both times I ended up turning them down because my manager was dangling promo in front of me, and both times my manager would leave the team soon after. My fault for sure, fool me once I guess...
Short answer though is that there were other influences and incentives, and I had a lot of false hope things would change as managers changed or a reorg happened.