I met this girl 2 years back, She and I really hit it off the very first time. For the very first time, I felt like I thought I met a really close friend who happened to be a girl. On our second meeting, My heart really started feeling for her. It was a feeling that in the last 35 years of my existence, I never felt with anyone in my life. I knew at the time that I was in love. And then I was syncing in that she is the one (I still feel the same today), she put down her expectations all of a sudden say that she is looking for a guy who is flamboyant. That made me think that she was looking for a person of C*O levels of sorts. But finally told me that she liked me. However, for unknown reasons(maybe some mistakes I had made, seriously not sure), she started being harsh when I tried to talk to her over the phone or in messages. and then one day becoming cold. My heart went cold, I started crying from time to time because I think I started to miss her literally, and angry with myself as to what was I missing, I picked myself up, tried to push it through in terms of a career, my behavior basically trying to become the person she wanted. During this while, Every other lady that I met after, I could really connect with or did not feel the same way leading to not being able to choose a woman/girl. It is been more than 2 years and it is still in the same condition. I am not trying to blame her but blaming myself. However, a few months ago I started to feel better in terms of not remembering her much. but one fine day I decided to check her profile for unknown reasons and I saw she was married to a person in the US (which is neither in California or New York), who is a manager in operations in a service-based IT company and has an MBA degree from the US. That really pissed me off on the one side that she has gotten married to a guy who is not as what she mentioned or at least what I perceived. On the other, I feel empowered that I am always a better person at least looking at his profile ( not sure in reality what is his real status). I should ideally feel happy for her, but I still think her marriage should fail ( hey, remember just a human being). Some of you would be like Go get a life, well I wish I could, My mind on one side says move on but my stupid heart it keeps killing me and making me depressed. Today I am 35 and I am not sure if I would be able to make a choice to marry a woman. #marriage #relationships #dating
Move on bro, you’ll find something better
Thanks bro
But would I get to meet a person where I would feel love or all this love a bull shit