Cried during Amazon Intern Evaluation Looking For New Grad Job

Pretty much what the title says. From June - September I did an internship with Amazon, more specifically, AWS. In the days and weeks prior to the intern evaluation I was told “I have a pretty good chance of getting a return offer”, that I “have really demonstrated that I can perform at a high level”, etc. from my mentor. My mentor is a great guy I really appreciated the kind words. He said inclined to hire. My manager said not inclined. It is frustrating because my manager was relatively not as updated with the project as much as my mentor was, and furthermore, this manager joined AWS this year. I found working with him frustrating, as he seemed to want to always be right or something and in addition, he wasn’t very technical with AWS services or at least he didn’t seem as technical as the other two managers in our organization. I felt at times I was my own manager, the L7 on our team and I reminded him to book a one on one meeting with me like my first or second week. I got myself access to add tickets to a sprint when imo a manager should take care of that, I asked him about the midterm review. Like tasks that I think a manager should take care of. He didn’t even go to the office for my demo. When the intern evaluation meeting happened and he let me know that he was not inclined I literally got emotional. My mentor said that some if not majority of the feedback my manager he gave was stuff that is common among L4 engineers or new grad engineers and those things come w experience. My mentor said I was coachable, and that those feedbacks are coachable. I worked so hard man. I think that’s probably why I was so emotional. I literally got assessments from JP Morgan Chase, and Akuna Capital. Airwallex and Ripple also got back to me after applying to them, however I didn’t really focus on doing the assessments and/or interviews for these companies because I wanted to focus on my Amazon internship project. Now there is about 4 months to try and get a new grad job. Given the current state of the economy, and that I have about 4 months till I graduate university, I am a little stressed about getting a new grad job. If anyone can kindly refer me to their company, that would be much appreciated. At this point, I am trying to get a job so I am not super picky. Any help would be appreciated. Experience: Internship at Amazon + an internship at the biggest bank in Canada + an internship at an insurance company Leetcode question count: 181 #engineering #software #swe #newgrad