42 years old farmer from low tier school in Bangladesh. Tech cost my marriage, health and time with kids. Even lift weight feels exhausting. Younger people with great horsepower outwork me as everyday I fall out of relevance. I learn to code at 35. Before coding I work as accountant for 15 dollar per hour. Now I make 280k but feel worse than I have ever felt. My net worth is way lower then some of the 20 year olds on this site. I’m happy for these young folks. I wish I had the drive when I was young. Now I’m just too far gone to have any focus. Meditation and weight help but it all go back to square one when open laptop. Sometimes I wish I go back Bangladesh and farming. Manager say my English bad. I take lesson online but I too discourage. Team call me grandpa because I old and fat. Still live with room mate to save $$. Divorce cost all money. Only joy is my daughter. Sold car as well. Use walmart bicycle and bus for commute. Got beaten up by some black people when grocery shop at night on my bicycle. Lost three teeth. No money for implant. Take medical Loan. Surgery lead to infection . 3 months rest. Disability leave was great for health and happiness. Now back to work
Damn you got beat up? Where was this? I’m sorry to hear that
First of all, you’re making more money than most people in the world. That in and of itself is a thing to be proud of. Second, I suggest talking to friends or a therapist. Sorry you’re feeling like this. Also, I think deleting Blind would be a healthy thing for you.
Not just the world. He makes more money than most people on the blind if I am right
Exactly. Just think about how many people would die to making that much money! We in tech have it made. We should really not take that for granted
This feels like it could be the plot for John Wick 5: Gone Desi
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Is this for real? Why aren’t you going to HR?
Looks made up to me, but if not: Dude, you have gone a long way from $15/hour to $280k/year. I’m sure there are people who don’t know what to do with this TC. Yes, life is a struggle, always has been. Cherish what you got and enjoy it as much as you can.
Life is hard fir sure . Think about your daughter and that should light up your mind . Please read the poem “if” by Rudyard Kipling . That is my go to poem to read when I feel down . Best of luck to you.
If I were you I would save for one or two years and move back to Bangladesh and start farming again. If you can save $500k that's more than enough in Bangladesh. Who knows $500 might become $1 M if you invest wisely
Looks made up..
If this is indeed made up then op definitely needs help. I don't think anyone normal would put time to script fictional stories and post it here
"Team calls me grandpa because I'm old and fat" was a giveaway. Nobody in tech, not even at Amazon, would call a coworker "grandpa" because they were old and fat (unless lifelong friends or something).
Your loneliness is killing more then anything else ,it’s very unfortunate to miss the family life at this age. At least try to push yourself to stay in the job at least a year or 2 and save decent money then you could visit your home country for better life and happiness.
Hang in there buddy. I feel you. In some of the similar situation