Why was I born?

Not really sure about you but here is my life (not Indian): Childhood (before college) - born at a middle of a war in a pretty messed up country - parents 1 barely finished high school the other barely finished anything in his life 🤦🏻‍♂️ - dad was a physical education teacher at a nowhere school - entire childhood was basically in misery, poverty, bullies and illness (raised in a hood) - never had bicycle, sports shoes, sneakers till I was perhaps 18-19, don’t remember if I had a pair of jeans - worked all the summers since I was 12 in manual labor jobs - treated like sh!t by moms brothers 😢 entire childhood College entrance exam - studied 11 hrs days for 2 years to pass the entrance exam - had no supplemental books, no counseling no guidance no nothing on entire 2 years just red the used text books I had - very difficult competition to get to college but I finally did major in engineering but at a part time program College - worked full time and studied part time - treated like sh!t by my manager but I needed the money so just did whatever it took - studied days and nights for courses, GRE and etc - applied to us schools with the small money I made and saved - heavily discouraged and laughed at by my family, dad watched football on tv with loud volume while I was studying for my GRE every night, mom was constantly discouraging me to get a job instead of studying 😢 US visa (13-14 years ago) - needed to go to another country to get visa as we didn’t have embassy at the home country - terrible environment due to mandatory military service which I needed to do Funded my Masters - got partial funding from the school, had $4750 in my pocket when arrive to the school - sleep in the school lab, on lawns, at a mosque for the 1 month to find a budget place to rent - slept on the floor for 2 years and had 1 blanket and 1 pillow I bought from Walmart - ate at a church on Fridays Got first job - extremely difficult to find one that sponsored h1b - didn’t have a car so walked in the highway early mornings to go to work for the first few weeks - terrible manager 🤦🏻‍♂️ but better than home country Hell of GC - I mean 😢 let’s not talk about this part … as I don’t want to even remember it - terrible companies and politics hold it as a hostage to slave me 2020, layoffs … health issues 2023 layoff 😢 even though I did extremely well and got promoted in Q1 I really like to ask God … what is it that you want ? Like what’s your point what are you trying to prove with me ? I’m really sick and tiered of this life. I struggle to sit somewhere without a fear of some really messed up thing is about to happen to me. TC 0