I have trouble loving myself. I consider myself a person with super high confidence but when at home with my partner (not married), i don't feel good. I second guess myself, think I'm weak and worthless. I'm also having thoughts of passive suicide but don't think I have time or means to go see a doctor. Don't know what to do.
No money to see a doctor? Doesn’t Amazon provide EAP or something similar?
I'm new to the company. How will I tell my manager I need to go see someone..all doctors i searched for are open only in regular hours. The ones I saw open..say they don't accept the insurance I have
Why would you ask your manager? Don't they have concierge or even a help line in your insurance company?
Are you in Seattle? If yes, it’s the gloomy weather that does that.
You should take your mental health very seriously. Ive known 4 people whove suicided. Its a horrible experience for everyone involved. Almost did that myself in HS cuz of an abusive home life. Happy i didnt. Things always get better. But i never really got stable till i started therapy and stopped speaking with my family. Honestly it was the most freeing thing in the world for me. But i couldnt have done it till i was ready
First of all you need to go talk to a doctor and If you don't have time you can call the suicide hotline and they will help you get phone consultations. The SO is not worth it enough for you to lose your life. My ex uses to put me down and treated me so badly and I was in your situation. But wherever I go people treated me well and they gave lots of compliments about my knowledge, looks and manners. So the real reason was my ex was a sick person and he likes to make others around him feel inferior.
Is your partner doing anything to make you feel this way? If so break it off.
We've been together very very long. Also don't think I want to. I can survive being dumped..but don't know if I can break it off
Take your confidence back! Do yourself a favor and break it off. You owe it to yourself to be surrounded by people that build you up and give you energy. Dump people from your life that suck your confidence and energy.