Gave in for arranged marriage.

Out of pressure of parents agreed for arrange marriage. What if I am not mature yet, what if I am not financially stable, what if I have no future plan, what if my career is in shambles, what if i have zero friends, what if i have social anxiety. Who cares, I am only going to screw 4-5 lives. How is that even important. Enjoy everyone.. 🎺🎺🎺 Who me- me who has no opinions. me work on principle like "everything is on spectrum. no plain good no bad", me emotionally weak, me probably mentally weak as well, me don't know me, me marriage, what a disaster. All past potential relationships/friendships have ended in enmity.